all about me

Fragile handle with care-24 hours

2008-07-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

Aaahhh,sick and tired of school man.Study and study and study.Never ending bitch.Haha,what the fuck.Why am I getting so pissed off?Haha,whatever.

Okay so yesterday stayed back for group study with Mr Noor.I now finally understand what the hell is channelisations.Hahaha,I owe him a note about it.Tomorrow need to give it to him.Hahaha,shit gonna do it later on.

I'm gonna finish painting my art.Yeay!At last,hahahaha.Oh my god,my haiwaii girl look like as if she is naked.Hahaha!Takper,sexy whaaat.Friday need to bring all the prep work and I don't even have one.Hahaha,die.

I had my N level Malay Oral just now.The invigilator was smiling at me all the way because I TALKED ALOT.Hahahaha!Like seriously I talked alot like never ending.From her face expressions,I can see that she is satisfied with whatever I talked.HAHA!Confident kaper?I hope I pass.Anw,it is about places that I went with the school and I talked about Vietnam and the experienced that I had when I went in the Chu Chi Tunnel.Both of them seems to be interested.Hahah,sekali dpt tau member pegi melancong ke sana.Hahaha!Okay dah cukop.

So today,I'm gonna sleep late.I need to do notes on channelisations.Also do my malay homework.Mishaaaaa!Sie dek tu irritating uhh.She kept on texting me siak.Walaoway.Mishaaa,make sure you talk to me ehk tomorrow.Hahaha,about the lappy not confirm yet.Hahahaha!

Okay,bye readers.

The world is black

2008-07-21T17:44:00.002+08:00

Oh hi.I had fun at Heidi's house on last Friday and Saturday.Shopping with mum on Sunday is great.Eventhough she is quite irritating at times,I still love her.

Saturday,gonna go out with Misha,Heidi,Shikin and chinese girls.We're gonna catch fireworks cause I had been wanting to watch.Heh.Maybe,gonne meet the other friends.I don't know..

Now,let the pictures do the ending.

Before heading to Sembawang Park

Infront of Heidi's house,hahaha!

Outside Heidi's house

Somewhere I don't know where,haha!

Walking around the neighbourhood

Presenting our gila moments

That pretty incident

2008-07-17T22:04:00.003+08:00

It's not the end of the world yet my friend.There's still a long way to go.Today is your day,what about the other days?I have finally understand what is going on right now.The problems that I am facing currently.You said you'll be there when I need ya.All those words that came out from your mouth means nothing.It doesn't make any sense.I still remember the pain that I felt months ago.I've did whatever I can afford to.Now,do you know what's next?

I don't have to mood to blog.Bye uh.

No words,just picture.

2008-07-15T20:06:00.003+08:00

This is how the mat rep like to pose,HAHA!

SHE-KIN

We rock,don't you think so?Haha!Look at our chest hair,HAHA!

MIA

2008-07-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

Whatever it is,I'M SORRY SHAMINI.My mother lah,she forced me to go.So sorray!Hahaha.Fo'sure,I'm gonna fail combine science.Yessa!

So after I came back from school,just slacked around at HOME.Haha.Erm later in the evening,my family and I went out to send Didi to Pasir Ris cos he's going back to camp.Then we headed to Singapore Expo to buy DURIANS.Hahahaha.Oh,they do sell some bangles there and I bought two of it.It cost me 10 bucks.Oh not me but mum.Hahahaha.I like it alot.After that,went home and ape lagik,we ate durians.I wanted to meet Z but he refused because I ate durian.HAHA.I think he is allergic to durian cos if he smell the smell of durian,he'll get headache.Haha,weak lah he.Tsk tsk.I think tomorrow I won't be meeting him also cos there's still somemore durian in the fridge.Haha.

Hmm,I seriously do not know whether I wanna pierce my tongue or not.Eh,dosa tak?HAHA!What a question siak.Okay,whatever.Still,Misha and I are gonna pierce our ear together.I wanna pierce the third hole for my right ear.Yessa,haha.

Alright,I'm like so sleepy right now.I shall camwhore soon cos my blog is so boring without pictures.Haha.Hmm,okay.

Oh,mum is gonna pay for the hair straightener that I ordered and also the ZDANE short that I ordered too.The seller said the colour for the short is cool and the name of the colour is chocolate grey.From the picture,I only can see white.Haha.I'm gonna collect it this friday at bedok.Wohooo!

Anw,does anyone know where can I buy plain oversized bf shirt?I really wanna get one.So do tell me okay?Heh.

Alright,till here then.BYE!

The meaning of being lonely

2008-07-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

Ahh,school.Fuck school lah.Just because I didn't bring my thermometer,I had to go through all that.Shit shit shit,fucking school.I didn't bring my thermometer.I then proceed to outside general office.Then HOD of science nag-ed at us.I thought I had my thermometer at home.So I went home,searched for it and called mum.Then I got to know my brother brought two of the thermometer to school.SHIIIT!Then I need to rush back to school cause I was given only 15 mins the reason is because I live nearby.Urgh.Then I need to buy the thermometer.Took my temperature and went for art class.I HATE TEMPERATURE TAKING EVENTHOUGH IT IS FOR OUR OWN GOOD.

Right so because of that,I missed art class which I had been looking forward since yesterday night.Hmm after that,everything is okay.

After school,I had my lunch and did my art.Say 'yeay' cause I've finished painting the hair,eyes,face and half of the magnifying glass so shikin,now you don't need to tell me that I am still painting the face.Hahaha!

Z came for awhile cause I asked him to help me.Then he went off to skate.Tak habis2.

So,tongue piercing.Well,I decided to go for it.Nurra,I'm gonna ask my friend to do it cos we're in the same school and it is much more easier.Haha,sorray babe.I'm still scared.Hahaha.Okay fine,just go for it.

Aahh,thats all.I gtg,MJ12 starting.BYE!
Tomorrow physic and chemistry mock test!

I hate ya effing much

2008-07-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

School was okay.I went for Art asp which ends at 5pm.Yes,lambat ehk?Haha,for the sake of finishing my art,I went for it.Hurray cause I've finished painting the face and eyes.My art piece is in school cause there's art tomorrow for one hour.Haha.

I got so damn emotional during geography class.He talked to me and I don't know why till it made me wannt cry.So yeah,I cried.HAHA!I seriously need to buck up."Cher",I'll try my best okay.I can't promise anything.Looking at how I am studying,there might be no hope.But still,I'll try my best.

Aiyah,it was raining just now.I got a slight fever.Hahaha,baruuu nak pegi cabot skolah tapi demam dah gone.HAHA!Tsk tsk.

So now,I wanna eat my dinner.Anw,have I told you I lost 3-4 kg?Hahaha!Yes,my current weight is now 50kg.I'm so happy,yeay.Proud sak,whatever -.-' hahaha.

Okay,bye.

I tried to be perfect

2008-07-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

School was okay.Social Studies teacher is seriously getting on my nerves.If you dislike our class,then why bother combining?We're better off on our own.I was talking to Misha during Social Studies and that teacher was talking when Aizat suddenly let out a louuud fart.Hahaha,4n1 laugh of course.It was funny,of course we laugh kan?
-.-' people...

Hmm,physic's teacher gave me one more chance.Phew,hahaha.If not,he'll call my mum.Oh well,I didn't bring my paper.Haha,sorry.I accidentally slot it in my chemistry file.

Hmm,what actually happened in school?Oh,we got scolded by few teachers.Hahahaha.Macam biase babe.Erm I can't really remember what happened uh.Forget about it.

T h a t s o m e o n e e h k , b e t t e r c h a n g e y o u r a t t i t u d e f i r s t b e f o r e y o u a s k m e o k a y . L o o k w h o ' s t a l k i n g d u d e !

Ahh,no mood to blog.Bye.

Boy I think that you should know

2008-07-08T23:51:00.003+08:00

Fucking shit.After almost a year of not having _____,suddenly,Pimple outbreak!Haha,damnit seh.Sheesh.

As you can see,I've already updated my wishlist.I haven't got any of them.Haha,perhaps soon uh kay.Oooo,right ear third piercing.Haha,yes I want another third hole.I was supposed to pierce just now after school.So I went to Yishun with Misha.We went somewhere else first then went to northpoint power 9.Sadly,they don't do anymore service for piercings.Haiyah,hahaha.So I'm gonna pierce next week.As for tongue,maybe after N level.Hahahaha.

School was okay today.Something happened during recess.Haha,another problem maker from someone.Oh well,now that she realised her mistake,I hope you won't do it again.Everything's settled,haha.I just hate hyprocrites okay.Hohoho.

So during art,my art teacher helped me to paint ABIT only.Puas hati aku paint sendirik siak.Hahaha,anw thanks for the help uh.You taught me ALOT just now.Hahaha.

Since the plan to pierce my ear was canceled,I head home.On the way home,Z called me.He told me he's not going to work.He is sick.So I asked him if he wants anything and yeah,I bought for him food,mcm biase.

I reached home,got ready and head to Sun Plaza to buy cheesy and chocolate pancakes from Mr Bean and also chicken wings from cavana and off to his house.He was touched by what I did.Hahaha,he is sick and I bought his favourite foods and went to his house.Aaawww,I'm such a good girlfriend.HAHA.After eating he took some medicine and after awhile he got much more better.Then we went to sit somewhere else for awhile and he sent me home.Hahaha,thanks kay.

He is sick tapi masih bleh lepak2 ehk?Hahaha,ape sajer tah.My blog is so boring.No pictures.Hahaha,soon uh kay?I feel like bringing my camera on thursday or friday and camwhore in school.HAHA!Buat klakar kaper?

Okay,MJ12 starting.Bye nights!

Then it happened,again

2008-07-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

"Wish that I could move on.
Can't let go it's too strong."

My youth day holiday.I woke up late.I don't need to babysit the kids cause when I woke up,they're gone.That maid seriously need to stop using her phone when the family is out because when we're out,she tend to call her friends and didn't do any work.Bloordy maid.Mum has already started to complain everything to me,sigh.I feel like telling my brother,HAHA.

So around 4pm,went off to pay something.I attracted attentions from some guys.HAHA!Whatver fedoura.I hate mat reps and I'll never ever fall in love with another mat rep.Hahahaha,dah serik aku.I wanted to pay something but that branch closed early today.I've got another an hour before I meet mum.So I decided to go home and rest for awhile.Around 5.30pm,called Z to meet me at Sembawang last cab towards woodland.We stopped at woodland and waited for my mum.Then walked around causeway point.Mum wanted to buy for me another 2 or 3 tops but none really attracts me.I did like this one shirt but there's no size for me.Haiyah.

Then we went to pasar malam and bought some food.Z's friend,burger ramly man,is scary because he kept on looking at me.Hahaha,I am scared okay.Mum bought 3 horror movies."Congkak,Orang Minyak & 40 hari pocong bangkit".I am so gonna bring it this friday when we go to misha's house.Wohooo!

Then went to my house,ate and went off to send Z home.I brought some brownies for mum to taste bake by z's mum.Delicious youuu!Mum like it alot and want me to ask for the recipe.Hahahaha.

Being over-protective in your relationship can cause to bad ends.If you're in love with someone,you gotta trust him.Trust is one of the most important thing in love.I realised my mistake and I'm sorry baby.I love you!Please baby.

Tomorrow is school day until N's over.Yeay,another 2 BLOORDY MONTHS AND I'M FREE FROM EDUCATION,for only a few months.HAHAHA!

I need help from Jimmy Tan tomorrow.Hahaah,okay habis.Nights and BYE!

Btw,I get nervous whenever someone big,muscular,tall stand beside me.Hahaha,I don't know why.Their body is so big till I get nervous.One example,Z's 1st elder brother.

Where's everyone?

2008-07-07T03:04:00.003+08:00

I decided to delete my previous post because I find it quite lame.Now I can update in a proper way because my dearly Z went home minutes ago.Hehe.I updated just now but he kept on disturbing me,urgh.But still,I love you.

Haha.So today,went to cousin's wedding.It was boring.Luckily I have my brother's psp with me.I was feeling hot.I saw lots of mat reps trying to attract attention.Haha,whatever.We decided to go home around 4pm because Didi need to be at Pasir Ris interchange by 5.15pm.

We reached home and I rest for awhile.Mum decided to go pasar malam.So mum,ilhan,qistina and me got ready and took bus to cwp.Mum bought for me a new top from metro.I love it okay.Haha.I swear to god the kids is really getting on my nerves.Haha.So we bought some food,candies and drinks and took cab home.

We had our dinner and I like the nasi lemak power boon lay.I got ready after dinner and went out to somewhere to fetch Z from work.Aaawww,one of his chinese colleague said that I'm pretty.HAHA!We then bought some food and head to Z's house.

His family,Z and I watched pushing daisies for awhile and after that to TOYOL.They were laughing at the toyol because the toyol is kind of lame.Hahahaha,first it was in green then red.Aper sajer tah.I ate brownies made by his mum.It was delicious,heh.Make somemore for me okay cik?

Z sent me home around 12am.He uploaded some new photos and went home around 3 am.I helped him to straighten his hair.Maklomlah,rambot dah panjang.Haha.Now,my hair straightener is with him!Urgh,you adorable boy,biler nak return?

Now I'm sleepy.I'm gonna end here.Wait for him to text me and off to bed.Tomorrow,I need to babysit kids.Aiyah,FOC somemore.Sigh.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

I know you don’t think that I am trying

2008-07-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning,I have to accompany my brother's maid to Singapore Post.She need to send some money.To bad,her work permit card is with my SIL and so she can't transfer any money and on Monday I gotta accompany her again.Ilhan and Irfan is really getting on my nerves.I hope in the future,my kids will not be like them.Hahaha,naughty nak mampos.

Then I took a short nap and around 5 plus got ready and went off to cousin's rewang.I swear I'm so bored.I didn't have my psp with me.It is with PAIZ.Shit uh,hahaha.I asked him to return my psp after he finish his work but he refused.Walau,hahahaha.Tomorrow need to attend another wedding.Confirm boring.

We went home around 9 plus.I ate alot these few days.Shit uh,I'm sure I'm gonna gain weight.Urgh,hate this alot.Whatever.

I'm glad that I've already finished painting the face for my art.Phew,hahaha.Monday gonna continue again.Urgh,boring.

I've got nothing else to say.So I'm gonna end here.Bye.

"Why get jealous when he's not mine?Get that in my that he is my friend,not more than that!"-anonymous,HAHA!

2008-07-05T16:07:00.002+08:00

TO MY LOVELY READERS,MY BLOG IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION.DO COME BACK TOMORROW OR LATER LATE AT NIGHT.HAHAHA!BYE.

Yours Truly,
Fedoura.

2008-07-05T01:37:00.002+08:00

"I can't pretend.Why must I do this when I actually love you?"

Aaahhh,today is okay.Misha didn't come to school so my day was kind of boring.Luckily Shamini came to school,phew.Both of us had recess with the chinese girls.Aaww,they're so kind so as to have recess with us cause we look so lonely.Hahahaha.During art,I got scolded for not bringing my canvas.Hahaha,whatever.Btw,I changed my topic from flight to magnified.I've even draw and painted abit on my canvas.Z helped me out just now.

During assembly,we had youth day celebration.The ones performing is not the students but the teachers and principal and vice-principal.Haha!Mr Felix look kind of disgusting when he was dancing.Eeewww.The teachers/principal/vice dance the song called BEAT IT by MJ.Hahaha,obit siol.I nearly cried when the sec fours cohort sang for us.Oh my god,it is so meaningful.Hahaha,but hell naw I didn't cry.Haha.

After that I got home and BUSH.I LOVE TODAY!

Around 9.30pm,I brought Ilhan out to fetch my dearly Paiz/Z.Paiz is so bad.He kept on disturbing Ilhan.Hahaha.I treat the both of them cheeseballs/black pepper balls from cavana.Then went to Sun Plaza,bought sundae and Paiz sent us home.

He then helped me out with my art.Thanks alot okay!I love you lots.

Oh my god,I love him soo much.He took the trouble to reserve this shorts like the one meg and dia own just for me.Of course he'll be paying for it.HAHA!Thank you once again.I'm so bad,I even asked him to buy for me a new earpiece which has got lights.So yeah,he's gonna buy for me next week.YIPPIE!MISHA,BE JEALOUS!HAHAHAHAHA!

I'm so tired.I'm sleepy.I'm gonna sleep.

Bye and nights.

Whatever.

2008-07-03T18:28:00.002+08:00

From Normal Academic promoted to "Express" stream.We used to be in the same class and our standard used to be the same.You got promoted to "Express" stream and now you're being like a big fuck to me uh?So what if I am still in Normal Academic?Does that mean you can look down on me?Or even US,the NA students.Hell naw fucker.Actually some parts of our subjects standard is just the same.It's just that you guys are taking A maths and some other subject that the EXPRESS students are taking.Some of the EXPRESS students did told us,the NA students on how proud you're behaving in class.The EXPRESS students didn't even act proud towards us buy youuuu,you did.Stop it okay.It is very irritating.Acting proud infront of us is not needed.This post has got nothing to do with some of you.I didn't even mention names.This has also got nothing to do with any EXPRESS students,just someone from "Express" class.Insulting NA students kaper?Whatever to you,dude.

School is boring.I wanna quit school.I can't believe it that I actually concentrated during physics lesson.Haha,wow.Some of us didn't go for maths and art asp.I did not bring my maths tys and also art stuff.I know I can just walk a few meters to take my maths tys and art stuffs at my house but I'm lazy to go back to school.Haha.I feel so tired that I took a short nap after school.Rahman and Hasif made jokes and the ones who are seated behind them laughed alot.Arnab treats his Dora mcm adik/matair dier sendirik.Hahaha,Dora nearly lose virgin to a guy oppss! a boy by the name of Rahman.Hahaha,what the hell.He fuck my playmobil girl.
): Hahaha!I call him a boy because he still behaving like primary school kids.Wait till you finish your NS then I call you a man okay?

I'll stop here.Need to do my geography homework.Bye.

TIME TO STUDY STUDY STUDY.

you know i do

2008-07-03T00:10:00.002+08:00

Today is the day I took my N level's oral.I wasn't feeling nervous when I'm in class.Mr Sham trained me for oral just now and he said that I might get distinction for oral.HAHA,insyallah okay.I managed to do my oral without trembling or what.I was smiling all the way and these two teachers doesnt even know how to smile.They gave me a fucked up face,especially that lady wearing scarf.Urgh,whatever it is I hope I get distinction.If I get distinction,I owe a BIG THANK YOU to MISHA ATHIRA.Cos she's the one that had been helping me.

I finished my oral around 4pm.I went home straight with Shamini.Then I got ready and went out.

I just love today too.I have no idea why.

Now,I'm gonna finish up my SS mock test.Deadline is tomorrow so goodbye people.

It's better to forget about me

2008-07-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.I love today.

MMUUAACCKKSS to you!

When are you gonna ask me?

2008-07-01T06:57:00.002+08:00

Aaahhh,it's 6.57AM.I am gonna update my blog.Haha.I'm gonna skip school today.I hate art.There's four periods of art today.I don't wanna bring along my canvas.Actually I just woke up.I am still sleepy.I wanna sleep but I'm waiting for someone's arrival.I'm sure he is still sleeping.

So yesterday,met Z at skatepark.Then we went off to cineleisure.I don't know where we're going until he went to meet his brother who is working at cineleisure about payments for movie.So from there,I knew it we're gonna watch movie.He asked me to pick any movie.I thought of watching it's a girl boy thing but the tickets are already sold out and whats more the show is starting at 9 plus.So I decided to watch Get Smart because everyone including him said that Get Smart is funny.After we bought the tickets,we wenta have dinner at burger king.After that,walked around cineleisure and I like this one top.He said he's gonna buy it for me.Hahaha,60 bucks youu.But he's brother is working at that shop so maybe we could get some discount.Heh.It was already going to be 6.30pm so we decided to head to level 6 and just sit around until we're able to get in.

Overall,the movie IS fantastic.Both of us laughed alot.Haha,agent 23 is hot.(The Rock mah).Next movie I wanna watch is,Its a girl boy thing.Misha is the one who asked me to watch that movie cos she said it's funny,(I think)Haha.

After the movie,we head to skate park.I sat for awhile and decided to head home around 9.30pm.I went home alone,yeah read that A.L.O.N.E.Well Z is going back quite late.So I went off first.

Btw,thanks for the treat.I like it alot (:
Well,when is the next time?Hoho.

Now what?I'm bored.I'm still in my boxer and tshirt.I havent even bath.Hahaha.I think after I update my blog,I'm going to sleep again.Anw,I've got some pictures to upload.I shall upload it later in the afternoon.

So now,I wanna sleep.Chaoz and happy schooling people,haha.
Oh,not to forget,tomorrow is my N LEVEL ORAL.I'm nervous,hahaha.Shit.
Okay bye.
-.-'

Running away from reality

2008-06-29T02:23:00.002+08:00

Saturday.Hmm,went to Malay Village and watch Kuda Kepang.We had to wait for quite a long time for the show to start.Overall,it was okay.Oh,there's this one guy look somewhat hot luh.Hahahaha,aaiyayayaya.Oh yeah,saw Maisarah and bf at the place where my bro park his car and also at the expressway.Hahahaha,see Singapore is so small.

Hmm,Z said he wants me to follow him somewhere on monday.I do not know where.He said it is a surprise.I wonder what it is.

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forgive and forget

2008-06-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

Ooooohhhhhh,currently listening to MJ12 through computer.Hahahaha,I'm all alone in the living room.See how brave I am.Hahahahaha.

School was okay.Assembly was okay.I enjoyed the performance from band.Celia Lim retire already.Hahaha,she was like sooo fanatic siak when she was standing at the stage.Now,that she's gone,nobody is gonna ask me,"how's ur art?okay?".Hahaha,she remember me uh?Chey,hahaha.

Then went home and met z at mrt station.His father sent us.Save skit duit tambang ku.Hahahaha.I managed to swim 10 laps.Then washed up.We then head to his house.His mum gave me 3 cupcakes.Delicious!Hahahahaha.Then he sent me home and off he went to skate.

I reached home and I slept all the way until 10 plus.I must be feeling damn tired.I'm gonna start drawing on my canvas tomorrow.Aiyayaya,next week is N level oral.I'm nervous.Heh.

I changed blogskin again.Now I'm bored.I've got nothing else to blog.Will update more again tomorrow and upload some pictures.Hah,bye.

I want huggies please

2008-06-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

Hahaha,sounds desperate gituk ehk?Of course nolah.

So today,school was okay at first.I was nearly late for school.Some of us didn't bring our uniforms so we didn't change.Mr Dinesh scolded us.Whatever lah gendeng.30 mins before school ends,Mr Felix came into the class and called those who are wearing pe shirt outside.We were asked to sit at the back of 4n2 class cos it was his lesson.He told us that he's gonna give us detention.Hahahaha,I was so pissed off siah because I need to go jamming and then go buy canvas.So after school,was asked to follow Felix.We got scolded outside the G.O.Luckily,he gave us one last chance.Hahahaha.So quickly rushed home,bath and got ready.

I got lost at first when I reached at D.G but managed to find the place at last.Hahahahaha.Reached there and I totally have got no mood to sing.Whats more,my voice serak seh.Yadayada,went off around 6 plus.I met misha and arnab at skate park cos faiz wanna skate.The bought canvas already.Thanks ehk for helping me.Hahahaha.Mine is the expensive one seh.There's no more stock for the China one.Hahaha,they got it for 24 bucks while mine is 33 bucks but akasyah give discount.Hahahahaha,thank you hor.Rahman was there also.The fice of us went home around 9pm.Hahahaha.Of course Rahman is the joker in the train.Hahahaha.

Penat aku ngan misha layan kau kat class.

Faiz sent me home.Thanks boy,haha.Tomorrow swimming with him.Must must must swim for 10 laps.I'll try lah huh.And misha,you scare me okay when you said that if we swim to much,ader "wings".Hahahaha,ugly seh badan kalau mcm gituk.No more hour glass body,HAHAHA!

I'm lazy to draw on my canvas.Tomorrow then.Hahahaha.
I'll end here aite.Haha,kay chaoz and nites everyone.

yoouuuuuuuuuuuu

2008-06-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

Urgh.Again and again.He did it again and again.How am I supposed to chill?Tell me how to forget about him.Muum,I feel so hurt.

Early in the morning,migrane is being such an ass.I decided to force myself to vommit.I did it and what came out was white,bubblelish liquid.I swear after I vommit,I felt much more better.So I didnt do PE.Oh yah,I laughed alot during art lesson.Hahahaha!Misha lah,she made me laugh.She drew a man and he look like ape,hahaha!So I help her to touch up abit.Now,that man look much more handsome.Hahahahahaa.I decided to do my painting on canvas first then I'll do my prep.I think that is much more easier.

I went home straight after school.I slept all the wat until 6 plus.Hahaha.I had dinner and around 8 plus,went out to fetch Z.I treat him to bubble tea,chicken wing and cheesy hot dog.Then slacked for awhile and went home at 1030pm cos that boy wanna watch anime.
-.-'

Tomorrow is physic's test!Cialat,ahahaha.

I've got nothing more to say.I'll end here.
Chaoz and nights.

pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease

I'm invisible when you're with them

2008-06-23T23:50:00.002+08:00

Whatever lah.Suker-suker hati kaper nak marah-marah orang macam gituk.Fun fair ehk?Fikir orang takder perasaan kaper?Eh,kate-kate kau ehk menyakitkan hati tau tak?Selame nie,aper yang kau dah buat kat aku,aku sabar ajer tau.Tuhan sajer yang tau lah macam maner geram nyer aku kat kau.Aku dah cukop sabar ngan perangai kau.Kau fikir aku nie aper?Barang mainan ehk?Sial lah.Biler kau takder orang lain,kau carik aku ehk?Biler kau ngan orang lain,kau buat bodoh ngan aku.Kau fikir aku suker per?Aku rase ehk,mase yang aku tunggu2 untok kau nie sumer tak worth it uh.Buang mase aku ajer.Kenape lah ehk aku bodoh sangat pegi kenal ngan kau.Aku kalau boleh tak nak kenal pon saper diri kau.Menyesal aku.Kau selalu sakit kan hati aku.Aku sabar ajer.Walaupun aku geram giler pat diri kau,aku sabar ajer.Kau patot bersyukur uh kawan baik kau tu tau nak jage hati aku.Bukan macam kau uh ehk.Sebelom kau nak perintah aku ubah perangai,kau ubah dulu uh perangai kau yang kurang ajar tu.Senang-senang ajer ehk nak comment perangai aku,abeh perangai kau?Kau tak fikir?Serious sak,ingat orang lain jugak uh.Jangan nak ingat tentang diri sendirik ajer.

I love you

2008-06-23T17:43:00.005+08:00

Today is the first day of school.Early in the morning at 745am,the malay students got scolded by Mr Dinesh.Oh my god!What the fuck siak.Mdm Mazni didn't say anything about us not attending the extra classes during June Holidays and there you are,happily shouting at us.You even said you feel like slapping us.Hahaha,go on uh.You're such a bad teacher.You used the word BULLSHIT on us.This is what he's teaching us during lesson.Asss.

Hmm,first day of school already got homework.Hahahaha.I need to do geography homework and ART prep.Tomorrow,art lesson will be after recess untill school finish.Aiyayayaya,mati lo.Never mind,2 more months is our exam.Bear with it.

Ng Joo Siah(???) ajak punyer lah boring.Walau,whatever siah you.Eeeeee.

I'm gonna do my homeworks now.This is my update for today.I'll end with some pictures yaw.Hahaha,bye.

I gotta do this,few more months

2008-06-22T21:40:00.002+08:00

Ola ola ola..Today is the last day of school holiday.Walao,I'm excited and nervous for school.HAHA!No idea why.Okay shuddup,I should feel boring about school.I hope,Mr Khairul will not be teaching us anymore.Hahaha,ass.

Today,woke up around 12pm and straight away bath and got ready to go out.Waah,all the way migrane uptill now.I just a panadol.Tell me now people,how can I concentrate when my head is being such an ass.Haiyah.Hahaha.

Didi went off for camp already.Mum bought for him two small tins of glucose.Erm original and grape flavour.Since they're not allowed to drink flavoured drinks,mum got for him the original flavour cos the colour is transparent and the taste is sweet.Hahaha,seriously sedap.I like the grape one of course.

Z just called me!WOOOOOOO!I feel so happy!Hahahaha.Of course I'm happy,I've not seen him for days.We're supposed to go for a swim yesterday then canceled.He'll be coming over for awhile to watch movie with me.YEAY!Mum is okay with it.Hahaha,hurray hurray.Plus I've got lots of titbits at home and he shall not complain to me he's hungry.Hahaha,love you dear.
Oh shit,23rd june 2008 is tomorrow.Hmm.

Okay I.T is starting soon.I'm gonna watch tevee.I've already packed my stuff for school.Hahaha,see!I'm excited about school.Hahahahaha,whatever.

Anw,I watched this one video about a woman stoned to death.It was horrible.I don't understand what happened.Hahaha I mean it took place at where?Why did they bashed her to death?Anyone know?

Right,I'm out.30 more mins he'll reach.Yeay!Hahaha,okay nights everyone.
Happy schooling!Wooooohoooo!

Oh yah,confirm kena catch coloured hair tomorrow.FYI,I did not colour my hair.Hahaha,natural kan?Hah,whatever.CHAOZ!

Step yo game up

2008-06-21T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm happy with what I have now.I didn't know I can have such a happy family.

Hahaha,my 1st elder brother already know what his maid's dirty little secret.Guess whaat?She shouted/screamed at Ilhan when Ilhan was asking what she's doing.So my brother scolded her back.Then mum also told him that I always complained to her about that maid.Hahaha,he immediately called the maid and scolded her back.Hahaha,tau pon.Wait,you still have not know she got a handphone.HAHAH,evil ehk aku?Whatever.

Z and I didn't go for a swim.The reason is because he wanna skate.I actually bought a goggle and then tak jadik.Of course I'm pissed off at first but yeah,I'm okay with it.I know how much he love to skate.Hahaha.Anyway,today they will be having skate streets.I can't follow cause I don't skate.Hahaha.Skate streets is like you skate anywhere.Not only at one spot.Hahaha,so isn't better if I just stay at home.Youuu,take care okay!I love youu!

So I decided to follow mum to causeway point.I thought of buying those dresses at metro.First look at it,pretty.Second look,macam tak lawar.Hahaha,so didn't buy any dress.BUT,we bought lots and lots and lots of titbits!Yeay!If boyfriend were to be at my house,confirm he like.Hahaha.One big basket is full of titbits.Hahaha.I bought a notebook for me to write down all my notes.Hehehe,hardworking eyy?

Oh yeah,Misha,Arnab,me and some others decided to buy the canvas next week.Hahahaha,haiyah.Art is such an ass.I regret taking art but then art is much more easier to do.Bear with it,another few more months babe!

So in the evening,went to chong pang with mum and brother.Mum wanna get him a new spectacle.His degree increase.Haha,padan muker.See,my eye sight is still clear.Hahahaha.He decided to get POLO spec and mum,bought for me a new contact lens!Erm if I'm not wrong,three in one ehk?Hahaha,not sure.I prefer grey,hahaha.

Tomorrow needa attend a function.Walao.Hahaha,takper can bergaye.Oh yeah,my left eye at the bottom at the inside of it,you know the red colour flesh,is bengkak.The flesh macam nak terkeluar.Of course painful,bear with it.

We had dinner at lestari,cabbed home and tadaaa here I am blogging.

Okay,I wanna do some revision.Read,DO SOME REVISION.Hahaha,kay chao.

Survey survey survey

2008-06-20T16:47:00.002+08:00

Ahh it's only 4.48pm and I've got nothing to do.I'll be doing my art later on after I do this survey.

I've been tagged by Feral Babe to do this survey. :)

(o1) Describe about urself?
` Pretty,Sweet,Cute-HAHAHA!Shuddup.

(o2) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
` Erm Aussies,Chicago and L.A-Hahaha!I don't know where to go.

(o3) What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
` Play the computer,Gaming,Outing,Camwhore,Eat(Really),Swimming.

(o4) Do you think money can buy happiness?
` Of course!NO!

(o5) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
` Hahaha,rich.

(o6) Do you believe you can survive without money?
`Of course no,I love money.

(o7) Do you think there is such a thing called 'LOVE'? Reason?
` Hahaha,yes.I'm in love with dear paiz.

(o8) What's love?
` Trust,Honest,Care,Responsibility,Sacrifices.Hahahaha,chey -_-'

(o9) What do you dream of doing in the future?`
` Erm,tai tai.Hahaha,nolah childcare teacher.

(10)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
` Kind,Sweet,Pretty.

(11) What makes you happy?`
` Ahahaha,money.& boyfriend,family & friends.

(12) What type of person do you hate the most?
` Copycats,Liar,Hypocrite,Backstabber and whatever lah.

(13) Where do you see yourself 1o years down the road?
` Erm married with four kids.Hahahaha!I don't know.

(14) At what age do you intend to get married?
` What age uh?Hahaha,if possible after 23 lah or maybe 24.

(15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
` Boyfriend,Family,Friends,MONEY!See how money-minded I am.

(16) Why do you love money soo much?**
` Why uh?Because with money I can buy what I want.

(17) If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want to change?
`Hahaha,superhero?Can?

(18) The love of your life now?
` Boyfriend lor.

(19) Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?
`Hahaha,nono.No need already.I like someone else,PAIZ!

(2o) Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?
` Hahaha,I prefer mind.

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above & add in your personal question. Make it a total of 2o questions. Then tag 1o people in your list & list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1)Nadd
2)Nuuurul
3)Kaliesa
4)Misha(hopefully you do it,haha!)
5)Edora
6)Ikah
7)Anyone
8)Anyone
9)Anyone
10)Anyone

I always tell you how cool you dress

2008-06-19T21:12:00.007+08:00

Whaddap?I managed to draw my planes research today.Hahaha,oh how cool!So tomorrow I'm left with drawing the landscape and the next day,I'm gonna draw another piece for 3 or 4 times then I'm gonna colour it and then I'm done for prep!Hahaha,yeay!

And yeah I didn't go anywhere today.Wah,boring.But,Z never fail to make me happy.He's working and I thought he wouldn't text me but hey he text me just now.Hahaha,I love you.Remember okay,this Saturday we go swimming?Hehehehe.

Didi will be back tomorrow.Hahahaha!I can't wait to see his body.Ntah turn ker tidak.Hahaha,woah skali he turn into a skinny man uh?Skin-nier than me?Haaha,siak uh.Ahh whatever it is,he'll be back in the afternoon.

I'm in love with the video 'church'.Hahahahaha.

I've got nothing else to say.So I'll upload the pictures okay?Hahaha,okay nights everyone.

I love this guy here!

I look fat,walao.

Everything you see here is old school camera.

Belongs to Z's dad.

As you can see,the jamming room.Ish orbs,got hantu?

Ahh this boy,feeling2 rocker.Hahaha,love you!

Video not available so forget about it.

Chaoz!

I love the way you talk

2008-06-19T03:21:00.002+08:00

I like my blogskin alot!Hahahaha.It took me about one hour to edit this blog.Satisfied with it.Hahahaha.

So today,I woke up around 3 plus.Yes,thanks to that dream uh.Well I dream that Z and I was chased by kak cantik.Then suddenly,Z has got this super power.Hahaha!He can fly siah!So he carried me and fly.That kak cantik grab his leg and the next thing she did was she bite my neck.She kept on biting my neck.My neck is the most sensitive part.So I move my head then I woke up.Hahaha,I actually felt that someone was beside me.Hahaha,anyway it was just a dream.I told Z about this and he laughed.Hahaha,super power kaper youuu?

Okay so my plan to do my art tak menjadik cause I got so shiok watching Chinese drama at channel 8.Hahaha.Then mum got home and asked me to go Sun Plaza to get dinner.We had KFC for dinner.Toaster Twister or whatever is goood!Delicious youu.Hahahaha,I wanna eat somemore!Shall go have it with Z one day.My treat okay baby?Hehehe.

Then around 11 plus,Z came to my house.I cook dinner for him.He love my milo.He said my milo is the best.Hahaha aww thank you.Then we watched Kung Fu Panda through online movies.Budget?So whaat?Why pay when you can get to watch for free.Clear somemore.Hahahaha.

Then he went off to meet his friends.Banyak you nyer nak balik ehk.Hahahaha.That boy is cheeky.Around 3am,I went down to meet him.Hahahaha,nolah.I asked him to accompany me to shop and save and I'll treat him to hotdog cheese.That is his favourite.You eat alot but still your badan tetap kurus.

People people!Guess whaat?This June holiday,I managed to lose another kg.That means,my weight from 53 change to 52.Hahaha,happy okay.Slowly losing weight.

This saturday,gonna head to Bras Basah with Misha to get our canvas.I'm gonna help Shamini to buy.Before that,in the morning I'm going for a swim with Z!Hahaha,this time round I wanna try to swim 10 laps.Hahaha!

Okay,I guess thats all for today.Goodbye everyone!
Oh yah,pictures next time uh kay?Hahahaha.

LOOVE

2008-06-18T02:11:00.004+08:00

We had a little fight in the morning just now.

Everything is my fault.

Why must I get jealousy over a small thing?

I do not have the answer for that.

Maybe I should stop all this.

I have to be open minded.

For the past few weeks,I've been hoping for something good to happen.

Now,after what I've done I'm not sure whether it's gonna happen or not.

I've been thinking,why must we end up being like this.

This is a torture for me.

You know I can't live without you.

You know I love you.

I had hurt you for many times for the past few months.

You gave me alot of chances and I just threw it away.

Maybe,I didn't realised how much you love me deeply back then.

What had happened to us really make me feel so guilty about the past.

Dude,can't we just start a new life?

If I love you very much,I gotta trust you.

Yes,I do love you very much.

I am slowly forcing myself to trust you.

I had weird dreams.

Everything is all about you.

Dude,forgive me will ya?

I love you.

I apologised for whatever had happened.

Yours Truly,

fedoura your lover

I hate this feeling

2008-06-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

Oh gawd,been waiting for that guy to text me from just now.I know I got angry suddenly.You should know me okay.But then you shouldn't do this to me.You're being so unfair towards me.I'll just wait and see what's gonna happen next.You made me feel sad now you gotta make me feel happy.Thinking about all this is making me feel so sick.This sucks!

Currently listening to MJ12 live.I've got baad headache.Soon,I'm gonna be sick.School starting next week.I've not done my prep or any homework.Tomorrow I gotta start on my prep.Last minute is my type.

I'm going to bed.Sorry,pictures and videos will be upload next time.
Nights people.

Ayat-Ayat Cinta

2008-06-17T01:31:00.002+08:00

Ssuuupp?

I went swimming at Yishun Swimming Complex with Z.Hahaha.I woke up early today,around 6 plus?Then around 8am got ready and called him.My god,he still can sleep when I'm already ready to go out.He said to be out by 10am.Thanks to him,we're out at 10.30am.HAHA,ler 30 mins ajer kan bacin.Okaay!He,Muhammad Faiz Bin Abdul HisHam,forced me to swim 10 laps at the deep pool.I think I managed to cover up only 5 laps.HAHA,I can't really breathe man.Whaddya expect?Ex-asthma whaat.Okay then washed up and had lunch at Pak Mandor's shop.

We then had ice-cream at Northpoint and went to his house.We went out again,to D.G to go to ham's work place.I tell ya,the first studio is cool man.I like it alot.We can even have a mini gig at the first studio.Waah,if only that place is my room.HAHA,dream on.I'll only get back my room after 7 years.Urgh.When the customers went home already,aperlagik they jam uh.So the ones playing was Z,Ham,Rakin and Haikal.Haikal played this thingy called tablaa,I THINK.Hahahaha,it goes well with paramore's songs.Hahaha.I managed to capture some pictures and record videos of them.Hahaha.Funny funny.So around 11.30pm,rushed to the MRT stations and managed to ride the last train to marina bay.

I just reached home btw.I'm feel so sleepy.Pictures and videos tomorrow okay?Nights everyone.

I can't decide,damn.

2008-06-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

Ssuupp?Hmm today I went to my cousin's open house.She just bought a new house.Anyway,she's from my father's side.I'm not close to them.They're all warak people.So I went there wearing long shirt and jeans with nail colour still on my nails.Of course they look at me semacam.Hahaha,whatever luh.Before that we went somewhere to get their present.Z was working so I dropped by his work place just to say hi.Hahaha,happy to see him.Then went to my cousin's open house and went home around 5 plus.

Then went home and I slept till 10 plus.Maybe I didn't get enough sleep.Of course,mum woke me up early in the morning just to ask me where is her personal kit.Walau,hahahaha.

Tomorrow gonna head to yishun swimming complex.I'm gonna go swimming with Z!Yeay!It's been months okay.Hopefully the kids will be back to their other grand's house tomorrow morning.Hahahahaha.

Okay I'll end my updates with some pictures.

Whuuuuuut?

2008-06-15T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hello.I just got back home.I went to watch soccer with edora and medora(ziela).Yes,a bunch of matreps called us that cause they asked me what's my name so I said,"fedoura".Hahaha,they don't believe it siah.Actually,it's not really my name luh.Then one of them asked edora where the three of us are staying and she answered back that we stay at malaysia.Hahaha,wtf one of the mat rep said,"ee minah malaysia,tak nak lah".We also don't want you lah.Too bad,you didn't managed to get our number.Hahaha,loser lah ehk korang.Anyway,Singapore lost 2-0 babe!The way the played macam rilek ajer.Sigh,whatever lah huh.They're out anyway.Hahahaha.Hmm after soccer had ended,we went to have our dinner at BK bugis.Too bad,Edora lost her 10 bucks.Wasted giler siah.Then we went home.Then I met Z.Hahaha,I asked him to fetch me but he was late.Never mind,I still love you.HAHAHA.

Oh,before that,Edora slept at my house yesterday.Hahaha,misteri jam 12 kaper?!Okay so the next morning which is today,we went to the saloon.The reason is to cut brother's hair aaannnddd rebond my hair!Hahahaha,happy siol.Finally,bob-like-style-hair.Yeay,HAHAHA.

We did managed to take some pictures.Hahaha,tomorrow aite cos I'm tired plus lazy.I wanna go to bed.Nights everyone.Chaoz.

This is the end for you my friend

2008-06-12T23:01:00.002+08:00

Whatssup?Okay z will be reaching any minute.After he go home,I'm going to bed straight away cos I wanna listen to misteri jam 12.Hahahaha.So just a short update will do yeah?So I woke up abit early today.Around 1.40pm.HAHA!Okay whatever.Then watched tevee,played witht he kids and around 4 plus I bath,yes I bath and around 5.45pm bring the kids out without the maid to meet mum at Sun Plaza.Hahaha.She thought I'm gonna bring her.While she was bathing,I quickly bring the kids out.Hahaaha.I don't wanna bring her cause she is irritating!Okay then we had dinner at mcdonald.Screw that maid cos she only gave the kids a plain bread for breakfast.No wonder the three of them was so hungry just now.Then went to arcade again.Hahaahahaha.I played car racing.I saw some of my classmates.Then went bought some old change kee and went home.

Okay,Z is beside me.He just scolded me for putting his munchy donut in the fridge.How would I know it's gonna be hard seh.Okay,whateverrrrrrr.

I might be going to singapore vs saudi arabia.Who wanna go with me?Hahaha,dora kau ckp kau nak pegi.Okay,I wanna go down for awhile with z.My bestfriend kat bawah,nak jumper say hie jap.Hahaha,okay and I won't forget to listen to Misteri Jam 12.Hahaha,kay bye people.I'll upload pictures that I've took tomorrow.

baliik pon cantik uh,aku bleh jage

2008-06-12T12:41:00.002+08:00

Okay,my brother's maid is seriously getting on my nerves.Mentang2 kau duduk kat sini,kau nak besar kepale uh?Oh,kat saner kau takot ehk kat sini nak step maner nyer 'maam'(mdm).Walau,aku bilang semua rahsia kau kat abang aku baru kau tau.Oh,kat sini takder orang tua cumer aku ngan adik aku ngan bdk2 nie sumer,kau fikir kau bnyk besar per?Eh cibai,budak tu tak buat aper2 yang kau nak marah2 diorang apehal?Eh,seriously aku tak payah nk kau tlg jagekan jugak,aku bleh handle lah ehk.Dah bertahun aku jage budak2 tu sumer.Kat sini kau ambik kesempatan nak pakai handphone malam2 ehk,kat saner tidak.Takot kaper girl?Bebual kalau plan2 takper jugak.Nie kuat2.Biler abang aku keluar,kau nak step takot konon.Eh stop it lah sial.Semalam dahlah nak step nangis.Hahahaha,laki kau kawin lain baru kau tau.Kau kejer dahlah makin malas.Kau nak tido kan budak2 supaye kau leh amek kesempatan untok tido uh?Siaaal ajer ehk kau.

I seriously do not know why I post this.Hahaha,maybe she's too much.Eeeeee.I hope one day one of the kids will complain everything to my brother.Just wait and see lah ehk pompan.Kau balik bali pon cantik.

have i ruined all you've given me

2008-06-11T22:56:00.004+08:00

Boring day for me.I decided to bring the kids down to the playground.My god,totally boring.Rahman and Ah Meng was skating so Irfan starred at them non-stop.Hahahaa!Whatever lah budak kecik.The other two,Qistina and Ilhan,was so naughty just now.They were running around and I do not know who to take care of.I was fucked up with their behaviour and decided to go home.You know what?Irfan cried.Aper lagik,I asked his sister to take this shoe and went off luh.Irritating okay.

Ilhan and Irfan fell asleep after bathing.So around 5.30pm,I decided to go Sun Plaza with Qistina.I asked her to take her bag and bring her psp,writing materials and etc.So we went to the library.HAHA!After how many years of not going to the library,I finally go today.So thought her how to read and pronounce properly and everything.Oh before that,we went to arcade.HAHAHA!Arcade ehk of all places.Hmm played racing car/car racing.Then to library.Then bought some food at old chang kee and sat outside Sun Plaza.Then went to buy bubble tea and waited for Car at mrt station.Finally she arrived and got her hoodie.Hahaha.At the same time,Z arrived at Sun Plaza so met him for awhile.We then went to Cavana,bought some chicken wings and went to munchy donut to buy 2 oreo for z.That guy uh,addicted siah.Then we sent Qistina home and after that accompanied him to wait for the bus.Then I went home.

So tomorrow I wonder what's my plan.I seriously do not know what to do.My pencil box gone,I don't know where the hell my ank sdares put.Walao,or maybe where my brother's maid keep.Iisshh.

I've got nothing more to blog.Till here then.Chaoz.

nobody loves you like i do

2008-06-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

Ola people.We didn't go botanic garden.What's the reason ehk?Haha,I forgot.So thought of following Misha,Car and Sadrina go swimming tomorrow at Jurong but then last minute my brother came and I have to babysit his childrens.walao,hahaha.boring holiday.i guess,tomorrow i'm gonna finish up my art prep.dear z had been forcing me to do my art.oh well,to please him i'll do it.haiyo.

Oh,news from didi.As you know he's at Pulau Tekong.It's been only 5 days and guess what?One of his room mate had passed away.He was actually sicked and he don't wanna tell the officers that he was sicked cause he thought that the officers might think he's faking it.slenge kan?so he actually fainted and around 5 plus in the afternoon today,he passed away.well,rest in peace yo.i really pity his family,haiyah.and to didi,i hope you take care uh.sick or what,tell the officers.haha,don't be like your room mate.

oh yeah,z came to my house for awhile today.haha,we got the same nail colour.hahahahaha.he said the colour is cool so he asked me to help him put it on.hahahaha,love ya z.

so another boring day at home for me tomorrow.hahaaha,sigh.whatever it is,i still wanna ride skyride & luge with misha,shamini and dear z one day.hahahahaha.sooon uh kay?

i'll end here.bye.

love me or hate me

2008-06-10T00:17:00.003+08:00

Suuuuup?I slept late yesterday.I slept around 8 plus in the morning.Yes,all night/morning was busy chatting with Misha and her sister.Hahaha,we talked about ghost lah and etc.Then they heard noised outside their room.Hahahaha.I got scared at first also okay.I scared makcik "kum kum" datang.Hahahah,she's back!Okay,overall I had fun chatting with them eventhough before that shits happened to me.Bloody,haha.I'm not referring it to misha and her sister.

Hmm,then I woke up around 2pm?Not sure.Then eat something,bath and waited for mum to come back home.I had nasi ayam penyet for dinner.Hahaha.Tomorrow is the day that I'm gonna have my last gooood meal.No reason for that.Oh well,I wanna diet lah of course.

So,tomorrow I'm going.With misha athira.Hahaha,we're going to botanic garden.Yess,of all place botanic garden ehk?We wanna camwhore and everything.I've been wanting to go there with that someone but then,i won't even have the chance to go out with that someone cos he said,"bwk pompan leceh uh".Okay fine,whatever.My friends are there for me,hahahahaha.Like real.

Okay,pictures tomorrow okay?I wanna sleep soon.Hahaha,kay bye.

9 days,still a long way to go.

2008-06-09T01:29:00.002+08:00

i miss you.
bring back those sweet memories i had with you.
i will never ever forget about it.
in fact,i'll always treasure it.
i force myself to hate you but i simply just couldn't do it
cause i love you soo much.
why must this happened?
dear god,what did i do until you have to do this to me?

i feel so shitty.

8 days boy,is it gonna be forever?

2008-06-08T00:31:00.003+08:00

i just got back from kulai,malaysia.it was a last minute plan to go there.we got sesat at first but managed to find my aunt's house after an hour.we have to go all the way in to go to her house.i wanted to ride the motorcyle alone but i'm scared luh.so my cousin tompang ilhan and me and we went to the kedai runcit.hahaha,it was fun babe.no need to wear helmet.we went home around 8pm.before reaching at the custom,we stopped at this one place i forgot where and had our dinner.i bought lots of gums.ahaha,for me,brother and dear z.

z came to my house for awhile to take his gums.i love him soo much.hahahahaha.he look like as if he's ready for bed cos he's wearing track pants and shirt.hahaha,working at sports shop mah.can't tell you guys where.one day,you guys will know.hahaha btw if you happen to see him there,keep it to yourself aite?hahaha,don't tag me saying that you see him.

guess what?mum let me rebond my hair!hahahaha,maybe tomorrow gonna rebond my hair then.hahaha,woohooo.like finally okay.then i'm gonna keep my hair long.btw,im not gonna cut my hair tomorrow,i'll just tell them i wanna rebond,no cutting.hahahaha.

i've got nothing more to say.goodbye.

It's been 6 days,still nothing from you

2008-06-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

Didi went for NS already.He'll only be back after 2 or 3 weeks.I'm not sure.I don't what's wrong with me till I feel like crying.Haha but hey I didn't cry okay.Reached home around 1 plus and I slept till 4pm.I was so sleepy.Then boyfriend texted me asking me to go and get ready.So I quickly got ready and met him at Sembawang MRT stations.I was early and while waiting for him to come,I bought honey milk tea.I was soo thirsty.We then proceed to skatepark.Around 7pm,we went to cineleisure and have our dinner at BK.Then proceed back to skatepark.I swear to god I was feeling bored.I sat for so long till my butt hurts.Around 11pm,we went to SPC(??),chilled and went home.Reached Sembawang around 12am.we then went to sevey,bought some food and drink and he sent me home.i heated the pizza that mum bought yesterday and he ate three of it.he fell asleep and he just went home.z,sleep tight baby.hahahaha.i'm also tired.something happened,not gonna mention now.tomorrow okay?takuuuuut!

okay pictures and video tomorrow,kay bye.

it's been 5 days

2008-06-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

You,it's been 5 days.What now?
I'm waiting

man,don't do this to me.

2008-06-05T02:06:00.002+08:00

SO WHAT IF I CRY LIKE A BABY?

IT WON'T HELP ANYWAY.

DON'T DO THIS TO ME.

I BEG YA.

MY GAWWWDDD.

BRING BACK THOSE MEMORIES I HAD WITH YOU.

It's been four days,still nothing from you.

2008-06-05T01:02:00.006+08:00

Ola people.Nammy was supposed to come to my house in the morning today but when I woke up,she's not in my house.Hahaha,later in the afternoon when I wanna go out she texted me asking whether I'm at home or not.Girl,siang2 tak nak dtg.Hahahaha.Nevermind she's coming tomorrow.So went to Z's house.We're supposed to walk around bandar but then he decided to skate after wearing the smart shirt and everything.We went out quite late,sigh.While waiting for him and his friends,I played Jamal's roller blade.Hahaha,it's been few years I've not play it.One day,I'm gonna drag Z to ECP and rent a roller blade.Hahahaha,I miss playing roller blade.So went out and head to Somerset.After weeks of not following Z to skatepark,I finally did today.My god,the whole time I was feeling damn boring.No use watching youtube videos from my psp,listen to songs and take pictures like nobody business.Around 11pm,we went home.Bounced back and reached Sembawang around 12am.Then chilled for awhile at the shop.Faizal's working so why not accompanied him for awhile with Z.Then at 12.30am I went home cause I cannot tahan already.I wanna shit.Hahahahaha!I finally did,disgusting.Now,here I am blogging.Ahhh,some pictures.I godeh2 my camera.Hahahaha.

DEAR YOU,IT'S BEEN FOUR DAYS.STILL NOTHING FROM YOU.WHAT NOW?DON'T TELL ME I HAVE TO WAIT FOR YEARS.OH GOD,HELP ME PLEASE.AAAAAAAHHHH!

Die Romantic

2008-06-04T00:36:00.004+08:00

I've been updating everyday.Haha,now what?Whadtahuaaaa?I don't know what to say.I've been meeting Z every single day.But still,I miss him soo much.Hmm,huggies please.Shaddafacup.I looove you baby,haha.I don't know what I call him baby.Maybe,he's been acting like a cute baby boy these few days.Oh boy.

The elder sista of nammy,nad,came to my house today.We then went out around 8.30pm.She head home while I head to Bukit Panjang to fetch my baby.I'm like a non-singaporean just now.When I reached Chua Chu Kang,I don't know where the hell is the LRT.So I searched around and there,found it.Then,the next problem was I do not know where to take the escalator or lift to go up.Hahaha,finally I took the stairs.Then,the next problem was I do not know which side to take.So I asked someone,"Excuse me,may I know which train should I take to go to B.Panjang?This one or that one".Hahahaha and she said both also can.The trip was only half an hour from Sembawang.I was early.Met Z and waited for him to change his clothes.Next,someone asked me,"Are you malay?You know the meaning of brabu?".HAHAHA,I swear to god I don't know.I only know 'babu'.Hahaha,sorry auntie.We then took the bus to woodland and 962 to Semb.We had late dinner at Mcdonald.Woah,like this I can grow fat sey.Hahaha,chill I've not been eating in the morning.

Anyway,I wanna sell something.There's some unwanted outfit.The reason I wanna sell it is because its either doesn't look good in me or too small for me.Hahaha,so here it is.

Suitable for those wearing size xs/s.

Selling this for only $12.

Once paid no refund.

Payment by POSB transfer.

Meeting will only be at Sembawang/Admiralty/Woodland MRT Station.

Suitable for those wearing size xs/s.
Selling this for only $12.

Once paid no refund.

Payment by POSB transfer.
Meeting will only be at Sembawang/Admiralty/Woodland MRT Station.

this nightmare won't last long

2008-06-03T14:57:00.002+08:00

I was tagged to do this survey by Feral Babe.Here it goes.

1. Who is your first lover?

`I forgot who.

2. What you want the most right now?

` Dearest Z♥ only.

3. What do you want to be in your next life?

`Z's wife,hahaha!♥

4. Something to describe yourself.

` I've got big eyes.

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?

` Be with Z forever and ever.

6. What are you afraid to lose now?

` Dearest Z♥ ,Family & my precious stuffs.

7. Do you believe in ETERNAL love?

` Maybe yes,maybe no.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

` No I won't.Cos I love Z very much.

9. How would you spend 200 bucks?

` Buy what I want and treat Z.

10.If one day,ur BF/Gf tells u..'Baby,ive gt smone new...'..what would u say & do?

` Only god knows what I'll do next in my life.But I hope that's not gonna happen.

11.Which type of person you hate most?

` No originality,no manners(blame their parents) and those unwanted people in this life uh.

12. So you cherish every of your friendship?

` With my dearest Z♥?Of course.

13. Do you really your bf/gf till you would do anything that they ask?

` Yes and the reason is because I love Z very much.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

` Dearest Z♥,Family,Friends and my precious stuffs.

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

` I already have one.

16. What do you want your friends to be like?

`Cool,funny,kick arse(as said by MTA),good and anything positive uh.

17. Who is that special person?

` Dearest Z!PAIZ/ZIAF/FAIZ

18. What hurts your heart the most?

` When I got busted by my love.

19. What do you do when you have nobody to go out with ?

`Stare at the computer screem,read my book and if boyfriend is working I'll fetch him.Hahaha!

20. How will you spend your time if today is your last day on Earth?

` Spend with my love ones of course.

Instructions : Remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question, make it total20 questions, then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she had been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessing from all.

1. misha

2. nurra

3. ikah

4. ana

5. anyone

After a year?or maybe two?

2008-06-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

It's not getting any better.Oh well,Nammy came to my house.Then we went off around 5pm.She head home while I head to Tampiness Mall.I was early so I had to wait for z around 90mins?Haha,he accidentally took the wrong bus.Heh,never mind.I don't mind waiting for my baby.So we went to Century Square(???) cause he wanted to search for new board.Sadly that shop only sell their own brand boards.He saw this one cool shoe but that's the last pair and it's not his size.Then my baby need to go to the loo,hahaha.Maklomlah,dlm bus lamer sgt.Then went to the same shop again cos he wanna check out their sweater.Before we went in he told me this,"kalau i nak beli,you stop me".Hahahaha,adorable lah you.Then we went to Tampiness Mall,went to RSH and check out the vans shoes.Then took 969 and went to northpoint.We went to RSH and finally,he bought a new shoe.Then we had our dinner at basement one and went home.Haha,bumped into nammy and ziela.

What's the plan for tomorrow huh?Well since baby is working tomorrow,I think I'll just do my art.I plan to get into higher nitec and get into the course for childcare teacher.Hahahha,I don't know what's the name of the course.Oh well,just pass my English,Malay and Art and I can get into that course.Of course I must pass my N level,hahaha.

I've got nothing more to say.
I just hope that everything will be alright.
"Mum,I hope so that's gonna happen.I really love _ _ _".
To you,"I'll always love ya".

semua bintang yang ku tinggalkan,temani kau sampai akhir malam

2008-06-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

i was awaken(?) by z's message.he didn't expect me to reply cause around 9 plus,i'll still be sleeping.hahaha.then 1st elder brother pissed me off.i had to go down with my muker tak mandi just to help him bring his fishing bag up.it was heavy okay.then somemore before i go up i must go to the shop and buy him newspaper,what-the-hell.then went home and i slept back.ahh,before that i received a call from someone and i actually cried.haha,emotional nyer aku.then bath and around 4 plus followed mum to sun plaza.

since brother will be going for ns this friday,mum is soooo semangat as in she bought him all the stuffs needed.she even bought him a google!hahahaha.i wanted a google too so i asked her to buy for me one and guess what she said?"after 3 months,borrow from didi".hahaha,whatthehelll.that means,i'll be going for a swim after 3 months,chey.hahahaha.i think puase already.

then reached home around 6.i bought a yellow dress and mum bought a nice cute top.cheap ley,my dress cost is only 7 bucks cause got discount.hahaha.then around 8 plus,got ready and went out at 9 to meet z.

reached at his workplace early so i went around the shopping mall and asked dora to call me to accompany me.hahaha.he finished his work already and i put down the phone.we then went to metro.z wanted to buy for me 'the beatles' shirt but then i refused because i don't want him to spend 60 bucks on a shirt for me.hahahaha,never mind dear.he still wanted to buy for me something so i look around and i told him i like this one grey shirt.the price isn't that bad,much more cheaper.only 40 bucks,i think.thanks aloooot z,i love ya!then went to bossini.he wanted to search for a sweater but then we can't find one,a nice one that he likes.he is very cerewet.hahahah,but still i love him.he saw this one black pants and decided to get 2 of it.one cost abour 30 plus and if he purchase two,the price is 50 bucks.so yeah,he purchased two of it.alah,for school mah.then we bus-ed back to sembawang.

we went to coffee bean and got a free venti pure chocolate drink.narissa(i think),nad's friend was there so we talked to her.ahaha,just a talked like "hey you know nad?".haha,btw nad,she asked how are you.hahaha.

we then head to mcdonalds and had our dinner/supper.after we finished eating,there's this one chinese man,he was talking in a angry tone to this one chinese guy who was playing computer.that chinese man was trying to pick a fight.so he called that chinese guy,he talked nonsense and went off like what the fuck.z and i was standing at our table and before that chinese man went off,he punched at the table where z and i was seating.i was shocked of course.he must be crazy,then i suddenly remember the incident that happened to sadrina.haha,well misha told me about it.luckily we had finished eating if not,kurang ajar habis sial tu jantan.orang tengah main computer,dier nk carik gadoh.merepek.hahahahah.

then we went to s.a.m cos i need to pay the bills.then walked home.before that,we chilled for awhile and around 12am,went home.thanks alot for today z,heh i love you!

just wait and see for the surprise,i hope you like it!

ii lovelove youyou!

2008-06-01T14:11:00.002+08:00

the song that you dedicated to me.

The drugs begin to peak

A smile of joy arrives in me

But sedation changes to panic and nausea

And breath starts to shorten

And heartbeats pound softer

You won't try to save me!

You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.

I can't forget, the times that I was

Lost and depressed from the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

You won't leave me alone!

Chisel my heart out of stone,

I give in everytime.

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had

I can't forget, the times that I was

Lost and depressed from the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself.

I bet you believe, that

I'm better off with you than someone else.

Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal.

But under your covers more torture than pleasure

And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter

Not now or forever will I ever change you I know that to go on,

I'll break you, my habit!

You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.

I can't forget, the times when I was

Lost and depressed form the awful truth

How do you do it?

You're my heroine!

I will save myself!

-----------------------------------

bila ku tak di sini

tetaplah kau bernyanyi

dan bila ku tlah pergi

kenanglah yg terjadi
pastikan padaku bahwa kamu

kan baik” saja

karna di setiap mimpiku

pasti selalu ada kamu
dengarkan dan rasakan

lagu yg kucipta

kan untukmu

walau mungkin terdengar gak merdu

tapi hanya untukmu
kita pernah bersama di sini

lalui hari penuh warna-warni

meski tak seindah pelangi

tapi kita pernah bermimpi

percayalah padaku

meski di gelap malam

kamu nggak sendirian

dan semua bintang

yg ku tinggalkan

temani kau sampai akhir malam
dengarkan dan rasakan

lagu yg kuciptakan untukmu

walau mungkin terdengar gak merdu

tapi hanya untukmu
kita pernah bersama di sinil

alui hari penuh warna-warni

meski tak seindah pelangi

tapi kita pernah bermimpi

mungkin ini hanya sementara

mungkin juga untuk selamanya

tapi nanti jika ku kembali

engkau harus ada di sini

i'm gonna miss you baby

2008-06-01T01:07:00.002+08:00

Mum woke me up early in the morning.She want me to accompany her go to the market.Luckily brother was at home so he drove us there.My niece accidentally stepped onto don't know who's shit and had to throw away her shoes.hahaha.Hmm,then went home.Around 4 plus,went to marsiling with mum cause i wanna buy hot pants and also blue faded jeans.mum bought a new high heel shoe too.hahaha,tak habis2.then we went to sheng shiong,bought some stuff and went home.when we reached home,i ate all the mangosteen that mum bought.hahaha,eventhough the taste is soo sourish,i still like it.it's been years since i last at one.hahahaha.

then i got ready to meet z.waited for him about 2 hours plus?hahaha,never mind.worth it.then we chilled under my blk and decided to walk around sembawang and we did.i felt so cold cause i was wearing my hot pants.hahah,maklomlah trying2 new pants.hahahaha.we reached my blk around 12.45am and i went home straight.mateku bengkak beb,ahah.no reason why.

anyway,next saturday i wont be in singapore.haha,chey step ader org rindu ajer -.-'whatever.well i'll be going to kulai in the morning and back to singapore at night.the purpose of going there is to visit my cousin who had just gave birth.anyway,we didn't go for her wedding last year.well it was a last minute invitation.hahaha.

i'll end here.i wanna sleep.i feel so dizzy,i see double.hahaha.

i'm gonna miss you,love you.

Their mum didn't teach them any manners,sigh.

2008-05-30T15:48:00.004+08:00

noname:ahahahaha,wow.thanks for tagging.hey noname or fucker,did your mum teach you any manners?even if your mum didn't teach you any manners,you should know some basic manners.ahahaha,did you go to school?if u did,ur parents had been wasting their money on you cause eventhough you go to school,you learn nothing.even when your teacher teach you some manners,nothing goes into your damn bloody brain.hahahaha.erm what's your name btw?you dare to tag but you don't dare to put your name.whatever.maybe you're jealous of my relationship with faiz.are you trying to break us off?haha,dream on fucker.well anyway,don't bother to tag me anymore cause i've blocked you.hahaha,serve you right babi.and so what if i'm rattling nonsense in my blog?why do you care so much?and it seems like you cared for faiz soo much cause he got himself a 'dumbass' girlfriend when i'm not!ahahah,wooo maybe you admire him?hahaha,hmm.whatever.i think i know who the hell is noname and kelvin from your language.woooo.okay gooodbye fucker!hahaha

you're right feral.i should just ignore them.ahaha,yeah sure i'll keep on updating and thanks btw!ahahaha.

well i skipped school again.i mean extra class.instead of going to school,i head to nammy's house.i taught her how to make up.ahahaha,she said my make up is much more better.chey,of course i'm proud uh.i don't really know how to put on eyeshadows so i just hentam only.hahaha,well done job nabilah.hmm,around 2 plus i head home.i was soo sleepy.i thought to take a short nap when i come back home but then i have to meet mum at 6.ahaha,well who knows i might wake up abit later kan.hmm.

i wanna buy shorts.later i'm gonna buy some.hahaha.hmm,currently raining heavily.i miss z very much.we didn't meet for almost 2 days.tomorrow,my baby is working.maybe meeting him tomorrow.hmm why not i fetch him tomorrow since it's quite near.ahahaha,i love you z.you see hunn,they're jealous.oh god.

oh well,i better get ready and off to meet mum.ahh,hopefully the rain stop before i go out.hahaha,insyallah.
okay,i'll end here.goodbye!
uninvited taggers/readers,stop judging others when you don't even know them well.
mak kau tak ajar kau kaper?
abeh bapak kau?pon tak ajar?
kau kurang ajar ngan aku,aku kurang ajar balik ngan kau babi.senang ajer.

Stop judging me when you know nothing asshole.

2008-05-29T17:49:00.004+08:00

to kelvin:
i did not flirt behind my boyfriend's back AGAIN.i know i did that before but that was months.maybe you're wondering who the hell is 'z' right?for your information,he is my boyfriend.my boyfriend's name is faiz and i decided to change his name whenever i talk about him in blog to 'z' cause i know that some readers is so curious who is 'z'.so whatchu gonna say now kelvin?did i flirt behind my boyfriend's back?no right?so please,stop judging when you know nothing.wow,i've got uninvited readers.thanks alot for coming by,ass.my boyfriend knew about it.for your information,his name 'faiz' when you read from the back is 'ziaf' so thats why i called him 'z'.get your facts right first kelvin.by the way,who are you? are you one of his bestfriend??

you see when you judge others wrongly.misunderstandings happened.anyway,i've already promised my boyfriend i would not do anymore shits behind his back.i can't afford to lose him people.he is my all time baby,my dearest boyfriend and do you think i dare to do shits behind his back?no right.say whatever you want,fucker.

enough of that guy,urgh.
i skipped class today.nammy came to my house.watched klakar rabal and she fell asleep.so i decided to bloghopp and search for new bags and tops from blogshop.urgh,how i wish i could have lots of money.ahaha,i want to work.since z is always busy with skating,school and work and he don't even have the time for me to go out somewhere.z is always busy.it's boring to stay at home.aahhh,i'm going to look for job soon.

what's the plan for tomorrow?well,go to school and after not sure.i wanna buy shorts.maybe gonna ask mum to go woodland.right,hopefully uh.

i think this will do for today.
goodbye,chao.

it's easy to dump a book,can you dump a relationship?

2008-05-29T00:27:00.002+08:00

Another piece of shit,what's next huh?Whatever boy.

As I was geting ready to go out,it rained heavily.I thought I'm gonna get wet like fuck.Oh no,by time I finished it wasn't raining anymore.Wait,it rained heavily again when I was at admiralty.I saw 168 and walked as fast as I could to the bus so that I won't miss it.It was boring,my psp batt went flat.I don't wanna use my phone to listen to songs cause I didn't charge it.Who knows,my batt went flat and I couldn't contact Z.So it rained again.I was in the bus,all alone for 90 mins.Damn,boring to the max siak.So I slept.When I reached bedok interchange,went to Mcdonald's and wait for Z.While waiting for him,I read my book.Oh,it's finishing.Hahaha.Finally,after 30 mins of waiting Z arrived.We had dinner at KFC,haha.Had our dinner and went home.I watched 80's rewind in 168 bus while Z was sleeping.Woah,I actually fetched Z from school today.Hahaha.I wentt home,had another dinner,watched tv and now I'm blogging.

I'm not going for tomorrow extra class but I'm going on Friday.Hahaha.Lazy lah people.

Anyway,I won't be going to homeclub next week cause zully backout.Aiyah,they can't find any bassist.Hahaha so sad.I plan to go out with Z,nad and nammy but then Z REFUSED!WHAT?!?!HELLOO,dah braper lamer tk keluar jln2 samer2?WEEKS!Fine if you don't want never mind.Go ahead uh with your skating.Irritating.skate skate skate skate,ape faedah nyer?dpt luke aderlah.

Argh,I end here.Goodbye.

Maybe,one more chance.

2008-05-27T23:41:00.004+08:00

You've got a problem with me boyS?Fuck off.What wrong have I done to you boys?Fuck off will ya?You guys are bunch of losers.Attention seeker.You guys are lame,do you know that?Mind your own business.Stupid crews.

I didn't went out today.Oh forget,I did went out.I went to mama shop to get some titbits.Hahaha,atleast I went out whaat.So I woke up around 1pm and I see nothing from my cell phone.Nothing from Z.I decided to delete two of my previous post because when Z comes to know about it,he'll think the other way round.He'll probably think that I'm trying to tell everyone that he's bad when I'm not.Oh well.

So I played the computer for awhile and then read my book.I don't know when to start on my art.I still have not bought any canvas.You know what?I'm dead.I'm sure I'll not be able to finish painting before holidays end!That means,I'm gonna get a scolding from Mr Jimmy Tan.Hahaha,whatever.

Tomorrow,I might go to the library.Take note,at bedok.Hahahaha.Yeah,it's damn far but then if Z decided to meet me it's easier.Right?Btw,Z is schooling at bedok.I'm gonna do my homeworks,do some revision,write down notes and also read my book.Anyone wanna come along?Hahahaha.

I decided to forget about everything,whatever he said to me.It was so mean till I just do not know what to say to him.Oh well,nevermind.I just hope that he won't repeat the same mistakes again.No more fake promises,sigh.

I think,my blogskin's suck.Right,I'm gonna edit my skin now.Haha,goodbye!

You did it again.Should I?

2008-05-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

FUCK,I FEEL SO SHITTY.

DON'T FEEL LIKE BLOGGING.

NOT IN A GOOD MOOD.

BYE.

thank you soo much,i appreciated it

2008-05-26T01:25:00.003+08:00

Family and I went to hougang.Then to grand's house.Home,got ready to meet boyfriend.We then head to chong pang.We then went to Mcdonald's and had dinner.He then taught me maths.Hahahaha.By 9 plus,we went off.Took 856 to his house.On the phone with Nammy and Boyfriend,hahaha.I went home around 11,thanks boyfriend for sending me hahaha.

By the way,I managed to maintain my weight.For the past few weeks,it is still 53kg.I'm a HAP HAP HAP HAPPY GIRL.Hahahaha.

Misha just sent me an audio she got from idk who.The audio was recorded when one of the DJRIA was telling us stories about cik kak.You know,"misteri jam 12"?I GOT SCARED like wth.Maybe one day,I'm gonna upload it at imeem and let you all listen to it.Beware,not for the faint-hearted.Hehehehehehe.Seriously scary.

Okay,I wanna sleep.Sleepy uh.

Nites!

Boy,do you know that I miss you?

2008-05-25T00:09:00.003+08:00

My mouse suck!Its gonna get spoiled soon.I need a new mouse mum.Get me a new one soon.I also need to get inks for my printer!You know,just for the sake to get more marks for N level art prep.Hahaha,thanks alot mum.Soon kay?

Today,I didn't go to esplanade and I didn't even meet boyfriend.Well,he's busy skating.You see,this is what happen when you're in a relationship with a skaterboy.Well,for me of course heh.So family decided to catch kuda kepang in action at Chong Pang.Luckily brother drive cause when we reached there,they're not in action.Well,they're nowhere to be found haha.So family decided to buy satays and chill at seletar.Yeah we did that.Few satay boys trying to flirt with me.Hahaha,whatever boys.Oh yeah,you boys didn't know that someone claimed I go for high standard guys hehe.

Reached there,ate satays and after awhile we head home.I'm so excited about my new phone.Mum bought a new phone too.Haha,her phone is unique.Reached home and I forgot what I did.Oh yeah,I taught mum how to use her phone.Then watched tv,ate some chips and here I am blogging.I'm gonna gain more weight cause I had been eating alot these few days.Say hello to Mr Fats.

Now,I'm having stomach cramp.Pms coming huh?Guess so.

Tomorrow,have to go hougang.The other cousins side,one of them just got sunat.Hahaha.Then maybe meeting boyfriend.

Monday,maybe watch movie with Misha and Shamini.We're gonna catch CONGKAK.FYI,Shamini is non-malay.There'll be subtittles kan?Hahahahaha.

I need to shit,so goodbye.Girl,if you know I'm talking about who,no offend okay cause what I've stated is all true.Bye.

Ei larve boyfriend.
Ei mist boyfriend.

you fucking bitch,motherfucker,asshole,cibai

2008-05-24T22:16:00.003+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to ass.

Hey ass or maybe asshole!Misha and I got to know that you hate us.The reason is because WE GO FOR HIGH STANDARD GUYS.Hahahaha,you fucking son of the bitch.Anyway,we're really happy to know about that.We're glad that you knew you're low standard and you don't even stand a chance to flirt with us.Hahaha.Cermin muker dulu uh babi.You and your girlfriend is the same.DUA2 MACAM SIAL.Okay enough about them.

I wanted a new phone.

I GOT THIS PHONE.YOU KNOW YANG PAT TEVEE,"LIVE LOUD!".YES THAT ONE,BUT THIS ONE THE OTHER MODEL,STILL LIVE LOUD.I LIKE I LIKE,IT COMES WITH THIS MINI SPEAKER AND THE SOUND IS SO CLEAR,PERFECT.

no,not being proud.just wanna share something.HAHAH!

misha!!be jealous!!

I miss boyfriend,love ya muacks.

and and,HAPPY 2 MTHS anni to that someone.HAHAHA!

So for now,take this down the notch

2008-05-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

[Ilhan,Qistina,Irfan]

I went to school today.Misha woke up late so we decided to go abit later.Less than 20 people came.Haha,atleast today's attendance is much more better than yesterday,can you imagine?5 our of 36 students in you class came to school?Haha,yes that was the attendance for yesterday.During art lesson,I drew jackass-tak-menjadik and a eye.During art lesson,we had unvited visitor name Mr Big Bee.It left after a few minutes flying around my area,pfftt!

After art was Social Studies,no teacher.Then Chemistry,didn't do anything.Just talk and talk with Misha and we actually laughed alot today.Then it was recess,had Mee Hoon Soto.Haha,too bad there's no fishcake today.I didn't finish it because I was too thirsty and I finished my fruit punch earlier so my stomach is full.Then it was Maths.Mr Khairul came into the class.The chinese boys pissed him off till he left the class,HAHA!Come on,who wanna study when exam had just ended.Anyway,there's maths camp next week.Be shock cause I'M GOING!Eventhough my friends aren't going,I'm still going cause I need to improve on my maths,hehe.But then,that fckuing nabei Khairul probably will be coming in.Walao.Then it was english,took my prelim oral and Mr Sham gave me good comments.He said I've improved and I started off very well.Wow!Hahaha,no I'm not trying to be proud,heh.

Then went home.I reached home and I took a short nap.Haha,from 2pm till 5pm.Short or not?Then my dearest boyfriend texted me.I've finished drawing ONE of my research picture.HAHA,pathetic.Nevermind.

Congratulations to my dearest boyfriend.You got it!Yeay,no more zoo.Time for a new job.

To whoever,don't ask me or him what job he got.Thank you (:

Kay,I wanna continue doing my art prep.Bye.

Something I cannot forget

2008-05-21T22:23:00.003+08:00

[Tell me about it,bitch]

Whatsuup?I got a scolding from mum because I skipped school today.Come on,there's no study going on.Anyway,thanks to my brother DIDI for telling mum.Idiot!I slept late yesterday,around 5 am?Hahaha.I was watching Forbidden Kingdom when suddenly mum woke up and asked me to shut down the computer.Walao,irritating but I managed to watch it until the end just now.

I woke up around 4pm,hahaha.Late,I know.I actually woke up around 11am but then I'm too sleepy.Hmm,I got ready and went to woodland interchange to meet boyfriend.We then took 962 cause he's going to skate with his friends,sigh.My boyfriend is getting more and more cheeky.I have no idea why.Oh,we stopped at Sun Plaza and bought sausage.We walked to the Mrt Station and went on our seperate ways.I miss you boyfriend.I can't contact him cause there's no more batt left in his phone,damn.Make sure you're home before 1am,you promised me.

Currently chatting with Misha,hahaha.I actually can't believed it what had happened,alamak.Chey,if she really do it,she's gonna get it from this girl and me,hahahaha!Now,my curfew to use the computer is at 11pm.WADDAHELL!?ALL thanks to my brother,whatever.I'll not do what you say MOMMA.

I gotta go,goodbye.

I'm going back to school tomorrow.Be happy,cos I've not been coming to school for a week.

Hahahaha!Luckily Misha is going.Cool.

Right,bye.

Oh anyway,whoever got a webcam and its plug to your computer the whole time,please turn your webcam and make it face to the wall or ceiling.You might not want a hacker to hack you and turn on you webcam and watch what you are doing huh?HAHAHA!My webcam is facing the ceiling so no problem.Misha,glad that your webcam is facing the wall.Hahahaha.

I got this message from misha and misha got it from idk who,kay chao.

I LOVE FAIZZZZZ.

Good time last forever

2008-05-21T02:58:00.002+08:00

[Be jealous cause I got a FAMOUS beanie,haha]

Didn't go to school,as usual.I woke up around 1130am and watched tevee.Then I got a call from boyfriend saying that he's already on the way to my house from ang mo kio.So,I got ready and met him at vending.We then took 859 to his house.The weather is just so hot,I'm still feeling hot right now.HAHA!As usual,fights happened between Faiz and Aufa,hahaha.I'm used to it already,haha.We ate mushroom soup,with cheese added in it.My boyfriend lah,he's the one that cooked the mushroom soup till I got stomach pain.We watched this particular movie halfway,it's called the heartbreak kid.OMG,very uncensored.Hahaha,sex everywhere and also naked everywhere.I think it is M18.Aufa even made a sound that goes like this,"ahh ahh ahh".HAHAHA!Funny uh your brother.Anyway,I think it's a good movie,funny too.

Around 930pm,I went home.Boyfriend came to my house.I cooked fried rice for both of us.Hahaha,not bad.Too bad,my dearest boyfriend rate it grade C!Hahaha,never mind there's still room for improvement.After he transfer songs from my computer to his phone,he went home.Now,my boyfriend is sleeping like a pig,chey kidding lah you adorble.Hahahaha.I miss him,chey -.-'

Thats all for today.I want pictures from AZ.

Maybe gonna send boyfriend to school,we'll see how lah ehk.

Goodbye,chao!

Max:Cheese,I love cheese

2008-05-20T00:15:00.004+08:00

Right so whatssup?On Vesak day,I spent my time with family.We went to Sentosa.

We're supposed to go and have picnic at East Coast Park but then brother suggested we go Sentosa.You know,I've been wanting to ride Sentosa Luge & Skyride.So,I managed to ride it with my dear Ihan!Only the two of us,haha.As you know Ilhan weight is 15kg and mine is 53kg,the thingy like senget sebelah.I felt so scared when the thing stop right in the middle and it's very high.Ilhan and I freaked out.Then when we reached at the destination,it's time for us to go down by the luge.Hahaha,ffuunn!I like it!Ilhan kept saying,"woah evo 10 evo 10".Yeah he likes to watch car racing.Hahahaa.But then kan,it was sooo damn hot ya know.The temperature was 44 degrees celcius.Of course Ilhan and I was like kind of burning when we're at the top.Hahaha.Anyway,I plan to go again and this time round with Boyfriend,Misha and Shamini.Let'g go together!Wohooooo!Too bad,mum didn't wanna ride the skyride and luge cos she's scared.Hahaha,so she waited for us at the bench.

Then we went back to our pit and packed our stuff and went home.I was so tired.I thought of meeting boyfriend but then he was busy skating sampai tk ingat dunia.Chey,nolah.Anyway I'm tired.I miss him!Tomorrow or should I say today gonna meet him.I'm gonna hug youu,I miss youu.Hahahaha.

Oh yeah,my dearest boyfriend did the most shocking thing infront of me yesterday.I was so shocked or surprised by what he had done infront of me.It really touch my heart. There's was this old lady infront of me.She couldn't get down the bus cos she's too old and her legs are weak.She talked to me in chinese but I couldn't understand a single thing.So,my dearest boyfriend actually helped the old lady.He hold her hand and helped her walked down the stairs and up the stairs slowly.Boyfriend,I tak sangka you buat cam gituk.You're so helpful.You understand elderly people very well.Hahaha,wah dapat pahala org tu.Omg!Hahahahaha.

I'm glad I have a good boyfriend and not only that,HELPFUL somemore.Hahaha.

My dearest boyfriend is full of ideas.

I still have not receive the thumbdrive from Azrie.Yo Yo Yo,I want the pics yaw.

Hahahaha,pape picit aku.

I end here,goodbye!

Ei Lov Eu

2008-05-18T12:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,went to Johor with mum,boyfriend,dora,nad,nurra,firah,cik yati,bek de,bek niah and cik ros.It was jam when we reached near the woodland checkpoint.So,spent about 1 hour plus in the bus.Boyfriend and I had mcdonal's for breakfast.Haha,it was damn packed and so we tapao and ate outside the shop that we're going.When we finished eating,they're still inside the shop taking measurements for their raya clothes so boyfriend and I decided to check out the skate shop there.Haha,we found one and it was at the far end,haha.I WANT THAT HOT FALLEN SHOE!But then I think not worth it uh because the macbeth shoe that my boyfriend bought for me is still quite new.Hahaha.After that,all of us went to silver planet.Mum spent about RM140 just for didi's and alun's clothes and pants,walao.I bought a new cool bag!It is for my school bag,haha.It look like dickes bag but nope,it is not dickies.Cheap,only 80 bucks.Mum bought for boyfriend a vans shoe.Hahahaha,yeay finally a new shoe for you.Now,what shoe you want?

We then walked around the place,tired babe!Boyfriend got stucked when he wanna scan his passport and I got scared.Hahaha,I don't know why.We reached singapore at around 3 plus.

Later at night at 8pm,I went out again.Hahaha.I went out with boyfriend and Ham.We met Rahman and Aizat at citylink sevey cos they want ham to help them buy vodka drink,hahahaha.Maklomlah,still under 18.Hahaha!

We then proceed to esplanade.Hahaha,minahs and matreps everywhere.Then came the rest.My dinner for yesterday was a sandwich with chicken ham and cheese.HAHA!Pathetic I know,but then I'm on diet mah.Hahahaha.

We went off around 11pm.Got into the last train towards marina bay.Boyfriend's friend,aby got in the train from cityhall I think.I was listening to some music from my psp and there he was asking me to lend him my psp.Haha,boyfriend told me he likes the game boxing from my psp.Reached Sembawang,got my psp back and head home.I was super tired.Hahaha.

I'll upload pictures once I get the photos from azrie,aiyooo lambat nah online.Confirm kau tengah tido skrg,haha!

Later maybe going out,I don't know where.Such a boring day yaw.Hahahaha.
Kay,I'll end here.I'm sleepy,chao.

My dear romeo

2008-05-17T00:07:00.002+08:00

Okay,I've got plans after MAY!Firstly,zully's gig at club on 6 june 2008.I'm going,boyfriend going and NURUUUUL you must go.Too bad for those who is still FIFTEEN,age below 16 is not allowed.Hahaha,MISHAAAA too bad you can't mosh.HAHA!The way you mosh just now is so pathetic siah.Chey,zully will be performing at club,got mosh meh?

Next,zully plan to go shisha-ing(?) with nurul,me and boyfriend and maybe some others.Wohooo.I can't waiiit!

Next,maybe gonna have SLUMBER PARTAY at Misha's house with Shamini!Wohoooo.Misha is gonna cook for us,chey like real only uh.HAHAHA!

Hmm,next,gonna buy damn fcuking CANVAS for art with Misha and Shamini,maybe.Hahaha.

Next I don't know.Tomorrow,need to wake up early at 6.30AM cos cousins and makcik are going to JOHOR.Hahaha,first time siah we go together.So there's me,mum,nad,dora,cik yati,cik rose,obek ede and don't know who else.Hahaha,harap2 org jahat di sana tidak mengganggu kami.Chey,ape jer.

Okay,I'll end here.Insyallah if there's any photo taken tomorrow I'll surely upload.TATA!

I wish you could stay close to me

2008-05-15T02:07:00.001+08:00

When she stares at your mouth(smile then kiss her)
When she pushes you or hits you(hug her tight)
When she starts cursing at you(say i love you to her)
When you break her heart(the pain will never go away)

I got these from friendster's bulletin.Anytime now I could just cry.Oh my god,why in the blue hell am I feeling like this.I should just forgive and forget but it seems that I can't.I'm truly hurt.Does this make it like as if I'm trying to announce to the whole world about what had happened?No,I don't think so.This is my blog.I have the right to do what I want.

To you,I hope you will think back again.I don't wish this to happened.Now who's at fault?My god.If I'm gonna say sorry,that doesn't mean I'm the biggest loser.In the end,somebody have got to give in.So who's gonna do it?I really hope we could let everything out tomorrow.Whatever you do,I still love you.Lets have breakfast together,see you tomorrow.

It goes on and on baby

2008-05-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

These few days,life's pretty good and I'm loving it.Most of the time,I had been going out with boyfriend.Last saturday,got home late reaching 2 am.I went to esplanade with boyfriend and friends and we managed to catch the last train to KRANJI,phew.When we reached Sembawang we went to Mcdonald cause some of them wanna eat.Then went home.

On sunday,went to grand's house.After that went home.Finally,ayat-ayat cinta and duyung.Yeah,reached home and I straight away watched ayat-ayat cinta and duyung.I love the movie ayat-ayat cinta and duyung.I know duyung is a little bit late but still never mind.Hahaha.

Monday,supposed to have some kind of event going on.But then it had been canceled.So spent the day with boyfriend,looove you!Today,I didn't go to school.Erm woke up by boyfriend's text and got ready to go to his house.I went home around 9,he and his younger siblings sent me home.Slacked for awhile at the playground just infront of my block and then they went to my house.They slept and I sent them down.Luckily his father fetch them cause his younger siblings are so tired.Hahahaha.

I'm not going to school tomorrow.I'm gonna fetch boyfriend at woodland interchange.Hahaha,I miss you eventhough we just met few hours ago.I'm gonna read my book after I update my blog.I'm gonna end my update with pictures taken last saturday and monday.

Boyfriend!

Ahahaha,nottyyy!

I love this!My favourite!

I look fat so keep your comment to yourself,thank you.

HE LOOK ADORABLE!

My adorable boyfriend.

He look like a cute three year old kid,love you!

My boyfriend and Ham.

My boyfriend,Ham and Rakin.

By,misha athira.She drew a "currycatcher" of us,ahahaa!

Anyway,Misha and I webcam I-forgot-when.We did print screen.You can view pictures at Misha's blog.Hahaha,here's her link.

http://i-wannagohome.blogspot.com

Deeply in love with you

2008-05-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

Listening to some of my facourite songs from this computer through my headphone.Everyone is asleep.I'm the only one still awake.I'm still waiting for boyfriend's reply.He's still busy skating.Maklomlah,it's been days he had not skate.Hahaha.I found my mic,my webcam is all ready.So misha athira,when are you gonna get microphone for your computer and then we can webcam+talk to each other through msn?Just like 3G call ehk?Haha,but then this one is free of charge.We can talk for as long as we want,haha.Eh gerek sak!Anyway,you can use your earpiece for mic you know.Plug it into microphone nyer lobang,hahaha.

Today is the last MYE paper.Of course I'm feeling happy.I find doing listening comprehension is a waste of time but never mind,who knows I score full mark for it and then it can add up to my main papers.Woah,if I fail my listening comprehension ehk meaning I'm deaf.Oh selengeh nyer akuuu.Hmm maths paper 2 is easy but still I'm pretty sure that I'm not gonna pass the paper.The reason is because I didn't bring my calculator.I thought we're not allowed to use calculator?HAHA!So fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail.

I had lunch with boyfriend and misha at northpoint.Hahaha,we didn't know where to go so finally we settled on this one place and had our lunch there.We thought of watching movie but then ehk,tickets are expensive.Isn't better if we wait till next week and watch the 6 bucks movies at cathay.Hahahaha.Misha,I plan to watch over her dead body next week on tues tau!Maybe uh if I'm not broke.

After we ate our lunch,misha went off to her grandma's house while boyfriend and I head to admiralty to take accoustic guitar from my cousin,nurra.I thought of buying accoustic guitar.Since nurra is not using it anymore,she decided to give her's to me.Haha,thank youu ehk.Yes,I really have to change the string.HAHA!Boyfriend told me to buy the 12 bucks one cos the bunyi is much more garing.Hahaha,okay lor.Then bus-ed to Sembawang,he sent me home and he went off to get ready to skate.Ahahaha,love youu.

I reached home and slept all the way.HAHA!Sleepy dok,woke up around 8pm and my 1st elder brother came.So I decided to buy dinner.Got ready and went to Sun plaza with Ilhan and bibik.Finally,I had my honey milk tea.I love it.Thanks to boyfriend,he started to drink it and I find the taste nice.It taste just like teh susu with pearl.HAHA,shiok.

To my cousins,"DIDI MASOK ARMY ON 6 JUNE!DEKAT PULAU TEKONG!".

Enough enough enough.I'll stop here.I wanna search websites to watch ayat-ayat cinta.I watched the trailer and read the description,I find it hurtful seh.Hahahaa.

List of movies I wanna watch:

Doomsday

Over her dead body

what happen in vegas

harold and kumar(i think it's m18 haha,tkper internet ader no worries)

ayat ayat cinta(badly wanna watch)

Okay I think that's all.Ahaha,kay I'm out.Chao bebeh.

I think,it's time for me to be open-minded.

2008-05-09T01:11:00.002+08:00

Shit,I should have studied all the notes given by Mr Jason Tan!No point regretting now fed.Oh man,I'm gonna fail.Let me tell you this,I'm gonna fail all my papers including malay.Great,how am I gonna get into Multimedia in ITE next year?I have to pass English,Maths and Science.Eeee,seriously shit seh!Yes,I want to go ITE not Sec 5.I don't have the confidence to do well for O's.Just wait and see for my MYE results,hahaha.Mum surely gonna scold me,hahaha.

So after exam,went home.Slacked for awhile,camwhored like an idiot ahah!Then I got ready and met boyfriend at woodlands.I was craving for polar puffs but end up buying waffles from Primadeli.Haha,their chocolate waffle is delicious.We bought cheese and chocolate.I didn't eat the cheese one cos it taste so sucky and the cheese is soo pathetic.Guess what,I can make myself one.They just put cheese like the one you put cheese onto your bread.Haha,pathetic right?Slengss.We then window shop at metro.Boyfriend lah ajak me.Ahaha.I wanna get those tops from there!Fucking nice I tell you!So boyfriend's next pay,gonna go shopping at metro.HAHA,chey step duit aku jer.I need a mp3 player badly.I want the one I can add video too.I want my psp for games and internet only.Mum,biler mau beli?

Around 8 plus,we went home.He sent me home.Tomorrow is Maths p2 and malay listening compre.After that,NO MORE EXAM!Hurray can enjoy.
Before mom nag at me again,I better stop blogging.
Till here people.BYEEE!

I sayang boyfriend many many many!
Love youuuuuuuu.

A little piece of heaven

2008-05-08T16:31:00.002+08:00

Before the story begins, is it such a sin.For me to take what's mine, until the end of time .We were more than friends, before the story ends.And I will take what's mine, create what God would never design

Our love had been so strong for far too longI was weak with fear that something would go wrong.Before the possibilities came true, I took all possibility from you .Almost laughed myself to tears, conjuring your deepest fears

You had my heart, at least for the most part .Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart. Let's make a new start .Cause everybody's gotta die sometime. But baby don't cry

I'll never let you go

2008-05-08T00:31:00.003+08:00

I still remember when this photo was taken!Haha,under a palm tree with light attached to it!Hahahaha,I miss those time seh.This was last year.Hah,Dora and I are trying to smile showing our teeth.So tadaa,ugly kan?Hahahaha.

Today,had our maths p1 and art exam.I'm 100% confident that I'm gonna fail my math p1 and the reason is because I did not bring along my calculator.What the hell man.Luckily Shikin had already finished her paper earlier so she lent me her calculator.Thank you shikin,I love you.HAHAHA.Our art paper start at 11.I put in alot of effort when colouring the bird's cage,the bird and everything.Hahaha,hopefully I pass cause this was a last minute prep yaw!After exam,straight away went to Yishun to meet boyfriend,zully and nad.I'm supposed to fetch boyfriend at bedok but then he finished school earlier cause there's a talk going on at zully's school and so the april's intake students had to go for it.I THINK uh,haha.Then we ate ice kachang.Oh before that,bumped into Dora,Aunt and Kak Ni!They were on their way to fetch Dahlia,haha.

After we had ice kachang,head to Sembawang and slack.Nad went off earlier cause she had to meet helmi I think.Hah I don't know.Then Zully went home while I followed boyfriend back to his house.We then had our dinner at Mcdonald.It was his treat and I treat him ice-cream.Then he sent me home.

Tomorrow is chemistry paper.It starts at 11am.I'm gonna go to school late around 10.45am.Hah.I'm tired and sleepy.Boyfriend told me he wanna online but then till now,he's still not online.I called him a few times and he did not answer the phone.I bet you're asleep hor.Fine,haha.Your syg hilary duff nyer lagu wake up dah download,tomorrow I send it to you.

Kay,simple edited blog.No idea what to edit,ah soon uh kay.

Promise me,no more secrets.

2008-05-06T23:16:00.004+08:00

People,what have you got to say about my previous post?I know,I'm over-protective.I was mad at my boyfriend yesterday because he kept a secret and I found it by myself.He had admit that he was wrong.If he have not told me about it,I wouldn't have got to know about it till now.I wonder,will it be untill forever.Urgh.

After school,I got ready and boyfriend came to my house.We then went to have out lunch at KFC.Great,two meals for 3 bucks only cause one of his friend works there.Before we had our lunch,when we were at 353 we quarreled.We quarreled because of the secrets he had not been telling me.Actually there's more and I actually had to force him to tell me.Wah,if I didn't force you,you wouldn't have told me about it.I was so mad at him just now.I even had the thought to just leave him there but then,I don't have the heart to leave him alone just like that.You see,eventhough you create problems I still love you dude.Anyway it was raining heavily just now and while waiting for the rain to stop I forced him to tell me everything,so it's a good timing.Yes he did told me everything.Isn't better?If you have told me about it earlier,that wouldn't have happened boyfriend.You've already promised me you won't keep any secrets from me anymore.I'll trust you on that.Make sure you mean it okay.I just don't understand,why can't I be over-protective on someone ILVM.Ah,whatever it is everything is over.Wait,not really over.Who knows,another problem happen ehk?Well,we'll see people.

Ah,I'm gonna faily my geography test.Shit,I managed to answer all the questions but for this one particular question,I know the answer but then I forgot about it.Mr Noor surely gonna be dissappointed.I should have study.Oh well,what's done is done.You can't turn back.No use regretting now cause it's my fault.I didn't really revise geography.I did some revision on geography 2 hours before the paper start.Dammit.

And now,I've to worry about maths.It's maths paper tomorrow.I'm still doing my art prep now.Hahaha,I need a break.I had been drawing for the past 3 hours.I decided to draw birds;freedom.Hahahaha,simple and easy.Wohooo.

I'm siicckk.S.I.C.K.Slight fever plus cough plus headache=combo.Eeee,this is sooo irritating.I'm gonna end here.I need to continue doing my art prep.Haha,after that I'm gonna do my maths p1 paper.Hahaha,so goodbye people.

Boyfriend,a promise is a promise.
Promise me you won't break it.
I trust you.
Love ya.
Miss ya.

Jealousy,silent killer.

2008-05-05T01:04:00.002+08:00

Define jealousy:
envy, covetousness, resentment; vigilance, zealousness; intolerance

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Jealousy
Jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat. The opposite of jealousy is compersion. The word stems from the French jalousie, formed from jaloux (jealous), and further from Low Latin zelosus (full of zeal), and from the Greek word for "ardour, zeal" (ζήλος) (with a root connoting "to boil, ferment"; or "yeast"). Jealousy is a familiar experience in human relationships. It has been reported in every culture and in many forms where researchers have looked. It has been observed in infants as young as 5-6 months old and in adults over 65 years old. It has been an enduring topic of interest for scientists, artists, and theologians. Psychologists have proposed several models of the processes underlying jealousy and have identified individual differences that influence the expression of jealousy. Sociologists have demonstrated that cultural beliefs and values play an important role in determining what triggers jealousy and what constitutes socially acceptable expressions of jealousy. Biologists have identified factors that may unconsciously influence the expression of jealousy. Artists have explored the theme of jealousy in photographs, paintings, movies, songs, plays, poems, and books. Theologians have offered religious views of jealousy based on the scriptures of their respective faiths. Despite its familiarity, however, people define jealousy in different ways. Some even mislabel it as being protective of something or someone, when the fact is, it's really simply possessive jealousy itself; and many feel they don't possess effective strategies for coping with this form of jealousy.

more:http://www.babylon.com/definition/jealousy/English/">Click here

Right.Sometimes,I wonder.What the hell is my boyfriend doing while I'm in school.Have he been meeting other girls?In the bus,is he sitting with other girls?I know I'm over-protective.Just like what zully have said.Paiz,they guy whom I love very much.I myself do not know whether I trust him or not after 1 year and 5 months being with him.So many things had happened.I've got so much to say but I just do not know how to shorten it up.Fine,I'll say some of it.I'm trying to say that I get jealous very easily,I dislike it when other girls contact my boyfriend(well eventhough I dislike it,I have to bear with it),I don't like my boyfriend sitting beside a girl,I don't like him being so friendly towards other girls,I don't like other girls take picture with my boyfriend,I don't like him going out with his friends without me and I hate it when other girls try to flirt with him.Oh come on,say whatever you want.I'm not mad at him or what.I'm mad at myself because I get sooo jealous like waddahell.I myself couldn't control it.So,what shall I do now?Seek help from who?Ahhh,no one can help me cos this jealousy feeling won't go away.

Boyfriend,I love you very much.We gotta talk dude.
Love ya.

I've been looking for that something

2008-05-03T02:09:00.003+08:00

Yesterday,I followed the boys went for their shopping time.I managed to get a new "wallet".Boyfriend bought it for me.The boys bought the same globe slipper and different design boardshort.Nanti ader jer org ikot2,hahaha.My boyfriend wanted to get me a new wallet so he ask me to choose and there you go,I chose a hot red one.Todaay,they bought D shirt haha.I didn't buy anything today,I'm broke.Hahahaha.I see them shopping mcm nak amik ajer duit yg akan keluar 2 tahun kemudian.Irritating ya know.

Boyfriend pierced his ear,after a few hours he took it off and can't put it in again.Hahahaha,apedah.I wanna have third percing on my right ear.Hahaha.I got the needle for lip piercing.I'll be piercing my lip soon maybe,not so sure.Hahahaha.

Tomorrow,gonne help boyfriend take his brand new geek spec for school and off to fetch him at the zoo.I wanna save up money cos I've got plans after MYE.Firstly is head to the beach with classmates and secondly,I wanna go zoo badly.Seriously I've been waiting for that someone to bring me IN to the zoo.Well,he promised me but then sampai skarang habok pon takda.Hahahaha.

I'm gonna edit my blog soon,maybe tomorrow.Hahaha.I'm super tired.I wanna sleep,goodnights.

I thanked you for being there for me whenever I need you.You're always there for me.You make me smile every minute,every seconds and everyday.The jealousy feelings that I've always feel towards you means I love you very much.I can't imagine what will my life be when you're not here with me.There's soo much obstacles happening in our life.I made you angry but you'll still be patient towards me.You understand me completely.There's so many things I wanna say but I just do not know how to put it into words.Whatever it is,remember that I'll always love you.I wonder,will you be mine forever?Sometimes you're being soo secretive towards me till I couldn't stand it.You do pissed me off at times.But still,I love you.I love starring at your face whenever you're asleep cos you look adorable.My dear,I hope you'll be mine forever.Love you.

-anonymous

Aaawww,I had a great time with you dear.

2008-04-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

I had English and Social Studies paper today.After school,head back home straight and had a short nap while waiting for boyfriend to call me.Around 4,he called me and I had a good nice cool shower,got ready and met him at Mrt Station.We then head to his house cause he gotta babysit his younger brother and sister as his parents is out to KL.His elder brother's are all busy with their own stuff,haha.Boyfriend ordered McDelivery for him and me cause I had been complaining to him that I'm hungry.Anyway,I'm craving for Double Cheese burger.Now,I'm craving for apple pie,hahaha.Around 6.30pm,we went to Causeway Point.I decided to get another piercing.Boyfriend paid for it,hahaha.Damn paiseh man,I got nervous and the lady who pierced my ear told me to relax and yadayada.Hahaha,actually it wasn't that pain.I plan to get another piercing soon.This time round,I'm gonna ask mum to pay for it.

We then head to 'old marsiling'.Boyfriend wanted to get a new future boot cut jeans for skating.Finally he got it and next,he wanted to get Jazz shoe for school.There was a heavy traffic jam just now and we ended up walking one big round just to get a bus.Finally,took a bus and head back to Causeway Point.His little brother and sister was sooo tired.They just reached home few minutes ago.Thanks for sending me home yaw!Hahaha.Aufa and Tarisyah(?) played with my white tiger for awhile.Hahaha,buat macam rumah sendirik gituk.Chey,never mind luh.

Thats all for today.I'm tired.Gonna finish reading my book cos Misha wanna borrow it.Haha,I'll try by next week.HAHA!Okay,I'm done.

GOODBYE!

I love you dear paiz!

2008-04-29T00:03:00.005+08:00

Heyho!Last saturday,went for Si Hua's birthday party.We played games and also the swings.Hahaha,I tasted Shikin's mango salad and it taste soo spicy.That is the first time I eat mango salad,hahaha.The first few whoever come first ate sausage cooked by Shikin,hahaha.Her sausage is soo cute,it look like a flower.Hahahaha.We camwhored.We played twister and it is very very tricky.Hahaha,hard siol.I lost many times,hahaha.My boyfriend came later and went home with him.I treat him 2 munchy donut,his all time favourite oreo.Then went home.

On sunday,went to grand's house.In the afternoon,I treat boyfriend oreo munchy donut again but this time roung is FOUR.He eat alot but still,his body will always be slim.I envy you lah boyfriend.

Todayy,school was okay.I can't wait for MYE cos we will be going home early and there's no lesson.You guys might be thinking I'm crazy but then seriously I can't wait to take my MYE.I went to Sembawang park with boyfriend just now and this one couple(mat rep&minahrep=mat motor) shout this to us,"APE TENGOK2?!".Nyahaha,lu olang carik gadoh sama salah couple lor.Of cos we ignored them,who wanna layan budak2 macam gituk?

I'm gonna study abit of geography and read my book.Hahahaha.I'll end with picture.

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Little Black Dress

2008-04-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

Revenge is sweet...
especially when it comes in the form
of brownies laced with rat poison.

-little black dress,'this is how it happened'

I got pissed off during Maths lesson.Thanks to Mr Khairul.Why does he always pick on me?My god,I feel like killing him.Nah,I don't wanna waste my time and life in girl's home for killing a newbie teacher.Haha,anyway I am not a murderer.I should have just call him 'bastard' like what Su Peng did and till now,he didn't even come nearer to the chinese girls.Haha,you girls rock yaw!Since I got pissed by him,I went to Shikin and the chinese girls and talk about tomorrow's birthday party.It's gonna be Si Hua'a birthday partyy.Haha,erm advance celebration cos we'll be having our mid year.Yes,canberra's mid year is starting next week on WEDNESDAY.Slooow sak.

After school,played computer for awhile and fetched boyfriend at the bus stop.We quarreled just now.We didn't text each other for 7 hours.
Girl:Dah,jgn nk layan i......
Boy:Ok then.Tats fine with me.See how long can u tahan.
See that?Sometimes,I feel like as if'd he didn't even care about me.My dear boyfriend,I love you very much.Do you?I have stop doing things that you dislike,but then what about you?Eventhough it is childish or foolish,you still have to be fair what.You're being sooo unfair.But now,we're texting each other.I am the one who have to text him first.I'm the boyfriend while he is the girlfriend,just like what MTA said.Hahaha.

After he went home,I felt sooo sad.So sad till I went into my room,closed and locked the door and listen to songs from my psp and SING OUT LOUD!I'll always do that whenever I'm feeling down.

Okay,after that got ready and met mum.I saw this interesting book.I read the descriptions of the book at the back of it.It seems interesting.So,guess what?I bought it siah!Okay,actually mum bought it for me.The cost is $10.17 and I've read until chapter four.The first few pages is already interesting for me.Anyway,it is under the category 'most popular fiction books'.I see people read book mcm best gituk,so I bought it lah.I wanna try also,hahaha.I don't read books.Last time I do,I read GOSSIP GIRLS book.I got four of the book and after that I didn't read any books.Now,I wanna try read this book by Jo Barrett.It is about this one girl,she broke up with her boyfriend and she wanna kill her boyfriend.How cruel she is!Hahahaha,I'm sure she's heartbroken.

MTA is coming to my house tomorrow.Then we're off to get something then go to Shikin's house then sembawang park.Hahahaha,gonna have lotsa fun!

okayimdonegoodbyeandivebeenwaitingforhisreplyforthe15minswhereareyou?

I.L.O.V.E.Y.O.U

2008-04-21T21:34:00.003+08:00

I've not been updating for 12345678910 days.Cheh,bedek uh.Now,I'm back yaw.Hehe!

Friday,I went to WWW with boyfriend.I had fun with him.Everything is on him,heh.He bought for me this cute little chocolate cake from emicakes.I love it!I've never taste that kind of cake before.It's not an ice cream cake but it taste just like ice cream cake.One day I shall post it lah ehk,hahahaha.I got something from the WWW=lazy pool.I got this from them.

It is on my left knee.Hahaha,I'm Miss mas slamat cos I walk tempang at certain time.Hahaha,lame!Haha,I can't even straighten my leg when I stand up,it takes time.Haha,cheh aku nie step critical jer.Padehal minor,hahahaha.

Saturday,I helped out boyfriend's mum.RosJingga POWER!I love her sambal goreng but then,that time there's HATI and I ate two of it.I didn't know that's hati.Hahaha,eeww eew eeww!

Sunday,explore with the family.Firstly,brother drove us to OCH.I wanted to go in but then mum is just too scared to go in.Brother had already said,"Kau nak masok pegi,aku tunggu luar".Hahaha,like duh he don't want.My sis-in-law plak,confirm she don't want.Hahahaha.Takkan nak ajak my ank sdare seh.Hahahaha.Then we went to buy some drinks at the coffee house.Then we went to have so-called picnic at changi beach.I took pictures of my ank sdare.

We then head to Labrador Park(??).I took pictures of my ank sdare again.

We then head to Kent Ridge park and home sweet home.

I had a tiring day.BOYFRIEND,I nk rumah sebelah laut boleh?Hahahahaha,dalam mimpi lah!

Okay,I'm done.
I've got lotsa homework to do.
Hahaha,bye!

Now is not the right time,I'm sorry

2008-04-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna sleep after I blog.A short post aite.Well,I'm actually waiting for a call from boyfriend but then I think one of his brother told me that he's asleep when I sent him a msg through msn.There he is,my adorable boyfriend sleeping.Just now in the afternoon he had been telling me that he is tired and he wanna sleep.He kept on resting his head on my shoulder.Aaawww dear.Zully was with us too.They went to my house cause boyfriend wanna transfer some songs to his 4GB phone,haha.Action siah he,later you phone lag that you know.Hmm,around 6pm he went home.He look cute in his school uniform.Hahaha,shall take a picture with him wearing his school uniform one day.Hmm zully told me that one girl from boyfriend's school asked my boyfriend to get her a drink and my boyfriend immediately say,"BUTO UH!GIK BELI SENDIRIK".Hahaha,I'm not so sure whether this is true or not.Whatever it is,I really hope girls in the same class/school as him will not do anything foolish if not,you're gonna get it.My god!I'm so paranoid!Why do I get jealous easily?Oh my god!I told myself to stop being so paranoid,but then what is this?Hahaha,I don't know why luh its just that I can't afford to lose my boyfriend anymore.Twice is enough for me okay,hahaha.Whatever.My dearly boyfriend,go and continue your sleep.Anything,do text or call me okay?Nites!

School was okay just now.Misha and I suddenly feel like doing physic's work just now.Both of us are not good in physic but we got all the MCQs correct!Hahahaha,alah easy mah.Cheh cheh cheh.We camwhore mcm org tak tahu malu but then,Misha Tan Athira deleted all of it.Wait not all,left two only.Hahaaha,apedah.Okay takper,can camwhore again like orang tak tahu malu,huhuhu.We went for physic's asp,mcm WOW gituk kan.Hahahahahaha.

Someone:"WHY ISN'T RAINING?"
Misha:"I don't know......."
HAHAHAH,lyana heard that.I heard that too.And so the three of us laughed.
HAHAHA.

Okay,I think thats all I gotta say.Wah,this is my short post.Okay go!

i miss boyfriend

i want him

i love him

i'm sorry

My boyfriend is adorable.

2008-04-15T20:40:00.002+08:00

Currently,on the phone with my boyfriend.I went out with him and mum just now.I got a haircut and I look like a emo maniac.Haha,but I love it.We had dinner at kopitiam.I got my wax,yeay.Hahaha.Then bus-ed to sembawang,boyfriend head to IDK where while mum and I head home.We watced putri and then watch disc 1 klakar rabak.Hah,I find it lame.Right,thats all for today's update.I'll post some pictures I took using my webcam.Hahaha,well Misha wanna see it badly.Here you go,Misha Tan Athira.

Sorry pictures not that clear,heh.

Anyway,I was on the phone with my boyfriend.

NEW LOOK PUHLEASE!

2008-04-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

THIS WILL BE MY NEW SOON HAIRSTYLE.

PRETTY SHORT,BUT I LIKE IT.

TIME FOR A NEW LOOK.

GOODBYE.

I love you but then...

2008-04-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Dear you,

Stop having this thinking that my love for you is getting lesser and
lesser each day.Let me tell you,I love you very much.Ever since we patched,I
told you that I don't like it whenever you guys are contacting each other.Yes,I
get jealous easily.Sorry to you cos you had to bear with it.That's the reason
whenever she or she or she text you,I'll show fcuking face that make you wanna
slap.I told ya,I can get jealous easily eventhough you're just saying it for
fun.Well,now, to whoever you wanna text go ahead.I won't scold you or get mad at
you.I'll just keep it to myself.In the future,I still have to go through all
these.Sigh.To others out there,say whatever you want.I love him very much,that's
the reason why I did this.I can't afford to lose him anymore.Twice is enough,not
more than that please.Whatever it is,I still love you more and more each day
dear.

Yours truly,
youaremybiggestenemy.bs.com

nah uh,i hate you.

2008-04-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

I,BADLY WANNA GET 68 BUCKS FOR WHAAT?CAUSE I WANNA CATCH THE CLICK FIVE LIVE!MOMMA,68 BUCKS PLEASE.HAHAHA,WHO WANNA GO WITH ME?HEHEHEHE,BOYFRIEND 100% DON'T WANNA GO CAUSE HE'S NOT INTERESTED IN CLICK FIVE BUT ME,I AM!

So yesterday,I fetched boyfriend.I was late so I met him infront of prata place.Then we took 167 and dropped off at raffles city and head to esplanade.Oh,before that we went to get some food from old chang kee.Then,we waited for Ham's arrival infront or 7-eleven.Then,we headed to esplanade.There's lots of different groups there and there's no place for us to sit so Ham decided to treat us drinks from 7-eleven.We went to the nearby 7-eleven which is at city link.Then we went to esplanade again.Finally,found one spot and sat.Then Ham's friend came.There's a performance,it was all retro.Yeah,that's what the perfomers said.

Boyfriend is sooo adorable.Hahaha.He was covering his face with his hands and smiling.Aiyah,cuute lah you.Ahahahaha.Then he baring here,baring there,baring here and baring there.Then minah2 trying to attract attention.Hahaha.Around 1030pm,we went off.Well,on the way to City Hall mrt station,there's this group of mat rep doing something to this one minah rep.I'm not so sure what they're doing but then that minah rep was screaming like as if she kena rogol.Haha,the she was lying on the floor.It happened just outside LJS.

Boyfriend slept all the way till we reached Sembawang.Aaawww,he's tired.I told him not to send me home cause he's feeling tired and he's sepet eyes are getting smaller.Hehehe,love ya!

Later on,gonna head to grand's house and then I'm off to go jamming with friends.Alah,nearby only what.So now,I gotta finish up that our own time-table.Haha,need to hand in tomorrow during morning assembly.

Okay,I'm out.
BYEEE.
Well today is 130408.Hmm,four more days ehk?
Hahahahaha.

I think it's amazing to have our imaginary cats.
Hahaha,yeah there's this one magic show going on and there's a imaginary dogs.
It actually pee-ed on this one audience.Hahaaha.
Of course the smell of the water is your peepees.

Finally,you're mine.I love you!

2008-04-11T13:04:00.003+08:00

There's no school yesterday.Boyfriend didn't go to work and I'm bored.I plan to apply job at toys 'r' us bu then canceled the plan because I'm not ready to work plus mid-year is coming.I have to wait till N level is over then,huahuahua.So yesterday,went out with boyfriend and Nad.Firstly went to far east to eat something.Boyfriend and I had lunch already and so we didn't eat much.Hahaha,I LOVE THE CHAR KWAY!Hahahaha,crispy I tell you!I ordered chicken fried rice and nad ordered laksa.Hahaha.Then went to new future to get my skirt.It is expensive.Luckily they don't have my size there so didn't buy.We walked around and finally took the train to bugis.All of us are sooo tired!It was raining and Nad and I don't wanna get wet so we walked around 'seiyu' and I saw prety cute bags,dresses and shirts!I must bring mum there!Hahahaha,she used to be fan of bugis junction.Seriously speaking.She always ajak me go there cos she wanna window shop and yadayada.The rain had stopped and we proceed to search for my skirt.First level,none!Second level,there's this one shop that do sell my size and its the last piece!Waah,I'm like soo happy!Finally got my skirt seh.I've been waiting for it for a week?Hahahaha.Then Nad went off cos she's gonna meet her boyfriend while boyfriend and I walked to BB.He wanna searched for gadget,hahaha.I'm not so sure luh.Then we walked to Penin,walk around.Boyfriend wanna get bass guitar,gadget and fish eye camera.All of them the prices are expensive.I wanna get him something,maybe that fish eye camera he had been eyeing uh.I gotta save up money siaaah,hahahahaha.If only I'm working,no need to save.Tsktsk.Then went home and something happened.

Actually,for the past 8 days I'm actually SINGLE.Yes,single.I'm not attached to my boyfriend.We're close friends for the past 8 days.Finally he accepted me back.I won't do anything foolish anymore!I promise,I love you!Hahahaha,thank you my dear!But then,it is still 231106 uh.Hehe.

Later on,I need to get ready and fetch him at the zoo.No,he's not a zookeeper.Hahahaha.Then insyallah,we'll go jamming.

This is today's update.I wanna rest for awhile,huhu.
BYE!

I hate third partay!

2008-04-09T23:04:00.003+08:00

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

Don't bother about my previous post.I just wanna let it all out.I heart you blogay,hahaha.Currently listening to apa artinya cinta by melly feat ari.Huahuahua.I skipped school.No one in my family know about it.Shamini told me Din cher called those who are absent idiots.Haha,very funney lah you cher.

I got ready to meet mum around 6.I walked out from the lift and I bumped into the same guy.Wanna know who?Oh,he is Ash from By Defination.Hahaha,well both of us look shocked okay.Hahaha,whatever.Met mum and we went to Marsiling.Searched for my skirt but then,the stock still have not come.Pissed off sak,they told me its gonna come on monday then sampai skrg habuk takda.Then we went to have dinner.I ate nasi ayam goreng and it tase delicious.I ordered soursop & cocktail ica kachang and ice lemon tea.Hehehehe,the soursop is super sour!Woah,like this how to loooose weight?Never mind,one day only.

Apply job with nad and boyfriend at toys 'r' us tomorrow!Woohooo!

Friday gonna go jamming with boyfriend and friends.How am I gonna sing when I'm having a bad cough sak?Nevermind,try my best.Cheh -.-'

Okay,I wanna study.Mid year coming oi,in another IDK how many weeks.I think less than a week oi!Hahah,till here then.Goodbye!

And to you boyfriend,no offence uh I wrote all that in my previous post.Yealah,you pissed me off okay.Don't blame me hor.Right,bye.

Money wasted,sigh.

2008-04-09T21:13:00.002+08:00

I TEXTED YOU BUT YOU DIDN'T EVEN REPLY.
I CALLED YOU BUT THERE'S NO NETWORK.
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU CALL OR TEXT SINCE 8PM!
PISSED OFF GILER SAK AKU!
FED UPP!!

DAH UH NO MOOD TO UPDATE,BYE!
I WANT TO STUDY AND THEN SLEEP.

THOUGHT OF SENDING YOU TOMORROW SINCE THERE'S NO SCHOOL FOR ME TOMORROW BUT THEN YOU DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO CHECK YOUR PHONE AND I'M ALL HERE WAITING FOR YOU TEXT OR CALL.

OH,AFTER TWO HOURS AND THIRTY MINS THEN YOU WANNA CALL ME!THERE YOU ARE,WENT OUT WITH YOUR GIRL FRIEND.KIWAAAAAAAAAAK!

AARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Leave me alone

2008-04-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

Didn't he tell you to stop contacting me?

Do you understand english and malay?

I said stop it!

Stop acting like as if'd you're caring so as to ask me "how am i?".

You should know that after that incident,I wouldn't be contacting you or meeting you again.

I've done enough sins towards him.

All thanks to you.

You told him that you're gonna forget about me and yadayada but now,why did you sent me that sudden text saying,"how are you?".

Oh pleaseelah,you bring bad luck to me.

I rather lose you than him.

At first he said to you that he wants you to take care of me but in the end you called him and you said you can't make promises and so you rather let him to take goooood care of me.

I'm glad that you know you're not fit enough to take care of me.

You know what?I'm hoping for him to take care of me not you.

If you were to take care of me,I can't imagine what will I become.

So now,you gotta move on.

I'm not gonna go to you anymore.

I promised myself that I won't contact or meet you anymore.

If we accidentally bump into each other outside,I'll act like as if'd I don't know you in the first place.

Goodbye my ex-boyfriend.

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Now,how's my colourful bloggay?Hehehehe.

Boyfriendku,no worries aite?This post is meant for the last message that he sent to me last monday.I love you paiz :)

It goes up and down,up and down.

2008-04-08T15:38:00.003+08:00

It's raining right now.The right time to have a good sleep for me but I can't do so because my boyfriend is on his way to my house.I asked him to cut my hair again.Yeah,this time round I want it to be much more shorter and neater.I had a bad hair day after P.E.Fucked up okay.I had to pass my 2.4km run.Thanked god I passed,with the timing 17 min plus.Luckily I'm still 15 year old if not that is considered as fail if I'm 16,huhu.I can't breathe for about 30 seconds.Misha saw how I coughed badly just now.Hahaha,waddafark seh.Weird cause it only happen when I'm in school and this is the second time.

Well,school was okay just now.I slept during social studies lesson cause I was too tired.Hmm,after school Misha,Arnab and me waited for Shamini and Sonia.Haha,they need to write a statement.Then we went home and I watched abit of Ghost Game just now cause I was too scared to watch alone.Hahaha,when boyfriend come I'm gonna watch it again.Yeah,first part already got that JIMU.Hahaha.

I heard bunyi motor scrambler(?) and I think it is my 2nd elder brother.Maklomlah,baru beli motor scrambler(?) katerkan,hahaha.Okay,I'm gonna have a hair cut soon.This is my update for today.Well atleast I update okay.Right,goodbye people.

Oh yeah,yesterday when I went out the lift I saw someone familiar.I was with my 1st elder brother and then that someone familiar handshake my brother.You want to know who?Well,he is Ash from By Defination.Haha,yeah not important.I thought whatever my brother told me about he and ash are friends is so not true but it turned out that it is true.
Yeah thats all so bye.

I love you,only you.

2008-04-07T22:19:00.002+08:00

Ola friends.I shouldn't have come to school today.Five free periods.Art and Physic teacher didn't come.But then as for physic,we had to do abit of work cause Blacky come in.Waddafark.During art lesson,I coughed macam nak mampos.I had twenty seconds of difficulty breathing,hehehehehe.Then I rushed to the restroom cause something came out from my mouht.I don't know how to spell lah people,hahaha.Misha and I had fun choy during recess.Hahaha,pathetic siah and I bought winter melon drink today,hahaha.I just find it funney.I thought of caboting geography class,in the end I decided to just go for it.Alah,only one hour what.Then it was malay,malay asp,english and went home.Misha and I skipped napha cause she didn't bring her pe attire,what lah youu.Hahaha,never mind we shall go together with shamini.Hahahaha.

I reached home,slept,got ready and off to meet boyfriendku.Then meet rakin and ham cause rakin want my boyfriend to cut his hair,haha.Then I thought of trim-ming abit my hair.So boyfriend trim-med my hair abit and he told my to just cut the back bottom of my hair short,then I ok go for it.Now,my hair dah jadik mcm concave.HAHAHA,but nice!If I want to wait for my hair to grow long ehk,boleh bercinta sak.

I LOVE FAIZ!
I LOVE MY SHORT HAIR!
HAHAHA,lame bye.

Whenever I'm jealous,it means that I love you very much.

2008-04-05T22:53:00.005+08:00

I'm supposed to blog yesterday but then I've got no time,heh.So yesterday,I'm supposed to go out with dora.But then,I came back from marsiling with mum and irfan quite late so yeah,plan canceled.We didn't even know there's no 856 at that bus stop cause of some changes and so we waited uh.Chibai,waited for one hour then we got to know there's no 856 bus there.So,we cabbed back home.Then I had to rush to Yishun to get something and fucked,I waste my energy going there cos there's no more stock.So went back to sembawang and meet my boyfriend.I treat him mcdonald and takoyaki.Poor him,work all day long and he only eat once.Then accompanied him eat his takoyaki and then he sent me home eventhough he is tired.We hugged each other and kissed each other and he went off.But then,he did not went home straight.He still could chill at vending,ape lah youuu.

Today,mum told me we're going to grand's house but then at last tak jadik.So,I had last minute plan.I decided to bring the kids to the nearby swimming complex since their parents are not at home.So,asked dora and sista along.Ilhan and Irfan nearly drown.HAHA.Nolah,they didn't really drown.Its just that their face termasok dalam air.Hahaha.After 2 hours of swimming,bathed and called brother to fetch us.

Now I'm blogging.Currently chatting with boyfriend and zully.Hahahaha.To my boyfriend,I loooooove you very much.Hehehe,tomorrow insyallah I fetch you okay?Love ya!Aaaahhhhh,pompan lain tolong jgn rampas dier dari aku!huhuhuh,hahahaha.Sorry,I get jealous quite easily.Hahahahahaha.I'm just looking for this one day,170408.Hehehehehehehe.

Right,I'm done with blogging.Gooodbye!

Lol,funny video

2008-04-05T10:13:00.002+08:00

I found this in one of my brother's friend myspace profile.

Hahaha,I didn't know he could "dance".

Nad and dora,korang mesti ketawe terbahak-bahak.

I want to be with you cos I love you very much.

2008-04-03T23:06:00.002+08:00

Erm school was okay just now.I slept during social studies class.4n1 skipped the morning run,we stayed in the class.Art teacher didn't come and FUCK,I left my art file in my class.I had tasteless mee hoon soto for recess,yesterday was superb!Lots of fries,chicken cutlet and also fish.I was alone during chemistry cos my friends did not bring/have their tys,sobsob.Haha,but I managed to get most of the answers correct.

After school,went home straight.Played computer and around 5 I got ready and went off at 6 to meet mum.I had dinner with mum at cavana and around six-forty five,head to yishun to have jamming session with my BOYFRIEND and friends.Now,I'm back.

I now understand what you mean.
Now,I just wanna hug you like I've never hug you before..
I want you to know that I love you very much...
I am happy that we're still together,sigh....

Paiz,anak cine/melayu.

2008-04-01T23:37:00.003+08:00

Today,I had fun in school.Haha,firstly it is april fool's day and secondly,I made stupid video of myself.First lesson was P.E,thought of escaping but then,Mr Ng shouted at us.HAHA.We didn't run,we walked.When we reached the temple,there's this one stray dog heading towards where we are going.Of course we got scared,haha.

I managed to escape from Mr Blacky,too bad Misha kena "scolded" by him.HAHA,see I ajak you go restroom you don't want.Then it was english.Misha and I was discussing and then that botak thought that we're talking,waddafark.

During recess time,we wasted our energy and time just to get the class key from VC.My gawd,our wallet is still in the class.I'm hungry and thirtsy,how am I gonna eat if my wallet is in the class.Alamaaak.

Then it was social studies,lots of laughter.Then it was chemistry,hahahaha yo yo "step up 2" punyaaa 'handshake'.Then it was enrichment programme.While waiting for the rest to come,Misha and I made videos of ourself,following what Miss Swan did in the MAD TV.Hahahaha,"yeah I tell ya everything,yeah I tell everything","he looooooook......like a man".HAHA,funny siah!I'll upload the video soon.

Misha,Arnab and me cabot enrichment programme during break time.I wanna sleep siah when the coach is talking.I slept for a few minutes and got ready to go out with boyfriend.Finally,he got a job as a part time photographer in a particular place.

Went to his house,waited for his dad to call and then we head to Sun Plaza.Walked around and met his father.He got his short and went to his house.Eyy,your father's "new" car gerek siah.Heh,smooooth ajer biler your father drive.But then,I still prefer your father's current car.

He packed his takraw stuff and we went off.But then,the thought of playing takraw was canceled.So boyfriend and zully went outside my house and we talked and talked and talked.Thanks to the both of them cos they did my extra maths homework.Alah,only 10 questions only.

I'm really tired,I'm out now.
Boyfriend,may you mum have a smooth op aite?
Take care okay,I'm sure its not that serious lah.

I'm gonna get sick sooner or later.
Okay I'm done,videos soon.
Bye.

Congrats to the floorball girls.
They won victoria JC(if im not wrong),16-1(if im not wrong).

There's no turning back.

2008-03-31T15:42:00.003+08:00

I'm still in my school uniform.I just got back from school,will bath and get change later on after I blog.Misha and I got extra homework,yes out of 35 students,only the two of us got extra work from Mr Khairul.He wanna help us.Misha just got to know that in order to get into sec 5,we have to pass one important subject and that is english and two other best subjects.She wanna take up mass com when she enter poly,hopefully.Hahaha,I still can't decide what I wanna do.Boring.Both of us semangat want to study already,hahaha.

I'm not trying to cause any fights alright.I don't know what had just happened until you cause some misunderstandings between us.By right,you shouldn't have told him.It was some gossips I got to know from some of my friends.Whatever it is,I'm glad that everything is over.Bleah.

Whatever the father have,the son must have.
That's how I study physic for this particular chapter.
Hahaha.

I'm starting to hate art.I just wish I could drop art but they have already deducted the money from my mum's account.Aahh damn.I feel like changing the topics but then,it'll be a waste of time cos I have to start painting on the canvas after I finish painting my final piece on a piece of drawing paper.Walauway.

I'm done for now.
I need to study hard to get to sec 5!
Yes,say hurray for O level and soon poly or maybe ITE.
HAHA.
Okay bye.
& I'm addicted to this song.No more rehab,let's say low low low low.

You're the man that I want,I'll always love you.

2008-03-30T22:38:00.002+08:00

I went to esplanade with some friends yesterday and in the end,I went home alone all by myself.Thank you very much,for doing that to me in public.Now,where can I hide my face?
Aaahhh,whatever it is I'll forget about what had happened yesterday.

Today,went to Daniq's birthday partay.I think I'm "extra" in this family,don't ya think so?After that,went to sun plaza with mum and younger brother.We had dinner at delifrance.My younger brother and I had lasagne.After that mum and I had chocolate fondue or whatever they spell it for dessert while brother had single scoop chocolate sundae.I love the dessert that I ate just now.When I cut it into half,the melted chocolate inside the cake will spread out and blablabla.Hahahahha.Then,I feel like vommitting.Why?Cos I feel so full.

We then bought some food from kfc for brother and his family.Mum paid 30 plus for all his food and now,the food has not been eaten.What the hell.He's now sleeping in his room.Helloo,mum paid for your food and now you're not eating it.Wasting money siah u!

I wanna watch shutter but I'm broke.
Now,I need to shit and go to bed maybe.
Will update some pictures tomorrow yeah.
Goodbye & goodnight!

When you look me in the eyes & tell me that you love me.

2008-03-28T22:19:00.004+08:00

WHADDUP!

Alhamdulillah Misha came to school today.Hahaha,I was in a rushed to school and wondering.why is everyone around me wearing tie?Are they councillors?Hahaha,and then I remembered it is tie day today.Luckily James didn't catch me,phew.I reached at the foyer and waited for Misha,Shamini and Sonia to come.I thought they're not coming cos its already going to be seven-thirty am.Then Misha came,followed by Shamini and Sonia.Hurray,I'm not really alone like yesterday,hahaha.

Today,boyfriend came to my house.I studied,followed him back to his house and he send me home.

Tomorrow I have to wake up early cos I need to go yishun to pay something not important for you people.In the afternoon,will be going to esplanade with boyfriend and I don't know who.Hahaha.

Farah,Ain and Mimie!I wish korang tiga goodluck untok floorball games okay!
:D :D :D

Shutter soon ah kay,soon.
I'm out,byeeeee.

Complicated,help me.

2008-03-27T22:02:00.005+08:00

School is boring,as usual.

My boyfriend think that HANNAH MONTANA is his girlfriend.Haha,and whenever there's hannah montana's advertisement on the tv,he'll go ''woooo,matair i.mcm biase''.Hahaha,tell me boy,who is Hannah Montana's boyfriend?You,zully or Ham?Boys nowdays,hahaha.

After school,rest for awhile and boyfriend came.Transfered some songs into my psp and went to his house.His momma and dadday is funny,cute couple.Hahahahaha.I went there and aufa goes,"MANER PANCIT BASIKAL?".Hahaha,his momma laughed out loud.Actually,he's asking where is the air pump for bicycle.Hahaha,funny lah your adeks.My boyfriend and his little sister name tarisyah never stop kissing each other mouth infront of me.Hahaha,alah small sister.I think she's only K1,see how cute.Hahahaha.

He showed me some of his pictures taken at terengganu.It was nice,damn pretty.I wish I could go there one day.I want!Around seven-forty-five pm we went off to meet boyfriend's friends cos they're gonna play takraw.I went home around nine pm.Now I'm blogging.I just hope Misha will be coming to school tomorrow.I don't want tomorrow to be like today.Damn bored siah.Its like as if'd we lost someone.Hahahahahahahaaha,many people didn't come today.

I don't know what I did till I lost 4kg in 3 months.HAAPPPYY SIAH!I didn't do any excercise.I'm aiming for 45 kg,if not maybe 47kg.I think its because I ate sooo little during dinner and I eat 2 times per day.I used to eat 4 times ehk.What to do,I've got big appetite.Hahahahaahha.

Now,I let pictures do the ending.

These pictures are taken last saturday.These are ikram's younger siblings.

I just hope you could understand my dear.I really love you.

2008-03-26T22:03:00.004+08:00

This is my ex-boyfriend and his name is Ikram.For the past few days,I've been meeting him.I know I am a bitch.But then,I've told everything to my dearest boyfriend.I don't know why but it seems like I can't forget about him.I admit it that I still love him.Wait,boyfriend already know about it.I decided to tell him everything.When Ikram and me first stead,he's soo good to me.I thought I could be with him forever but then I didn't expect us to go on our seperate ways.We had fights before we broke up.It all started when he found out a guy name Hazim texted me.All because of that he started to treat me badly and do things that I don't like like smoking and flirting.Exactly on our 11 months of being together,I asked for a break up.I told him I couldn't stand it when he treat me badly and no point be together when we're not in good terms.Now,we contact each other back.He's willing to do anything for me.I'm sorry Ikram,I nearly wanna break up with Faiz to be with you.In the end,I decided not to because I'm afraid you'll treat me like how you use to treat me last time.I know you feel sad and don't wanna break up with me when I asked for it.I'm sorry,its too late.I need to forget about you.I'm trying to forget about you.Urgh,I don't know.Its hard for me to make a decision.Someone tell me what should I do.

FFAAIIZZ,tell me what should I do?
I'm scared for I don't know what.
I'm sad because of you and him.
I'm confused!
I need help from you!

_______________ forever.

2008-03-25T13:48:00.003+08:00

Once again,I love faiz.
:(

I'm confused.

2008-03-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

I spent time with my love ones during weekends.Oh friday,went shopping with mum and Qistina.Mum bought for me a long v top,two tights and a black dress.Thanks alot mum.I'm happy.We had dinner at banquet.We had a hard time searching for it.Hahaa.

On saturyday had a great day.On Sunday,I had a great day too.Bring back the memories once again,insyallah.

I may be a bitch but when I love that someone,I'll love him sincerely.
I can only cry,fuck you I'm not emo.

Urgh,I don't have the mood to update.
Pictures will be upload soon.
Sorry,goodbye.